Jyauen

Frustration

2011-09-19T19:01:00.001+08:00

I'm really angry. Just, speechless!

FUCK. i really don't have the mood to go to school tomorrow. Even if the sky is falling the pigs are flying i don't give a single hoot about it. I'm bloody pissed with everything and I feel so agitated.

blood types.

2011-09-10T22:11:00.002+08:00

okay, so recently, the 'hot topic' was about blood types among my friends LOL.
it's kind of creepy how people will know my personality and my habits once they read up on my blood type. :S whattypeareyou on twitter totally spot on on my blood type about my personalities. :S LOL SERIOUSLY, some of my friends have some untrue, for me, it's all TRUE OTL. I think i'm really a typical pure blooded one. LOL.

yes, according to my blood type, I think a lot. Which cause me to have a lot of regrets... A lot of mistakes. And easily misunderstand stuffs. But rarely open up or speak up about what I thought or any problems I have. Yes, its only once in a blue moon I talked to someone about my problems. In the past quite often, but nowadays... Let's just say I started to close up about my problems and myself more already. On the surface I may look like ya I don't care, but really... I'm thinking a lot inside and pondering on the choices. In the end, did nothing. -.-

Makes me & my sister so similar in personality already. We've the same horoscope & blood type lol. It's funny how she and I said the same thing at the same time when we were watching 新环珠格格 a few days back. HAHAHA.

A week without my parents... I can't imagine how am I going to live with my sister (a possibility) in future. I'll only live with her if my parents go over to live there as well. LOL. SERIOUSLY. THE HOUSE IS IN A MESS!!!!!!

...

2011-08-23T22:41:00.000+08:00

can't believe i did it again. for the nth time.

sorry.

planning

2011-07-17T02:16:00.002+08:00

There's so MANY things I want to do after 'o' levels. Or rather, NOW! I want to draw, or even complete some of my half-completed art pieces in the sketchbook, do up some graphics, and maybe i'll design my own planner next year, etc. It's so art-related, ironic that I'm not aiming to go into the design industry in future. To me, my interest can't be my work. I'll go crazy.

It's mid-july now and obviously birthdays of friends are coming up. I guess I've to go around shopping soon, I've some ideas planned in mind for the presents but I wonder if I've time to actually complete it. Hmm..

Still up at this late hour because of dreality version 3 layout. I had to finish the base layout before I sleep, if not I'll keep procrastinating and not finish it before the next weekend comes. Coughs, I'm pretty excited to put the layout up ^^ I just realize I enjoy maintaining a challenge site after all. I'm lacking of beautiful entries, that is. Those graphic designers for this circle nowadays... I really ♥ the ones from two years back! Everyone is so awesome at that time. Now after two years... The new generation kind of lacking in their skills. Except for those who survived from last 2 years till now~ They're still awesome, or even better :)

I should be sleeping now, well, reading fanfic on my bed with my phone before I really rest for the night. So, yeah.

ups and downs,

2011-07-14T23:02:00.005+08:00

Stress.
Somehow it all piled up altogether today, all the things, everything.

I guess I'm just being a little more sensitive today but sigh. I aren't someone who can really cheer someone up and all I could do is to tell them not to cry? My pea brain always can't think of solutions to this sort of stuffs. Somehow, I really do feel very bad every time I see someone cry. It's like, I couldn't make them come out from the 'sad side', all I could do is to say a few words, don't cry? Two words to be specific. What a friend am I.

I think I need some self-reflection and seriously shut up. I have the feeling that the more I talk, the more wrong things come out from my mouth. I know these shouldn't be coming up on here but I guess my fingers just led me here unknowingly.

An interesting friend. Teach me how to be one?

whatthefuckiswrongwithyou, thamyuni.

I realize dramas, comedy shows, are all an escape route for me. Escaping from reality for a short while. Just a short while. And everything just hits back hard upon realization.

Urgh, I guess this is why I'm so tired despite sleeping early, or whatever. It's the symptom of stress. Before someone else realize, I realize it myself.
How pathetic.

Just letting you know, I've never forgotten you best friend.

This post is edited a lot of times, mind you. I seem to have a never-ending thoughts that I want to pin down here.

A strong person may be strong on the surface, but he/she could get real fragile at times.
But I disagree. Fragile, not in front of others. It's only at the point when he/she burst, it'll burst.
So, he/she will suffer a lot since his/her tolerance is so high.

During these times, what I needed is just close friends to chat. That is sufficient. I had such a sensitive personality during these times and I need that little security to make me calm down and move on.

However, every single time... I guess it was just fated. Every single time, when I was at the brink, but not at the maximum, it is just like everyone shut down on me. No one is replying, no one is talking. And that insecurity inside me just builds up, but I've to pushed it aside by force to face the next day.

But, all of these is part of the growing process. It's life. Challenges bound to bring you down at times, and you've to stand up to overcome it and take the next shot. Challenges, no matter how small it is, sometimes, it will be the one which brings you down.

It has to start from myself to make the effort to be a better friend. No point blaming it on others, no point waiting for others. It has to start with myself to make the change. I'll try, but I've no confidence.

I'm glad that I'm born with such mindset as I'm a little better now, as the situation seemed to twist and turn by me into a positive way. But I'm sure this positiveness in this situation won't last long. It had always been like this. It's no surprise, I guess this will be a new challenge for me to maybe forget and get done with it, or to overcome it to become better.

sometimes it's hard

2011-06-18T13:31:00.003+08:00

It's both at fault. One with unclear intention, one who misinterpret and started that comment which in the end hurt the other one! I think I'm going to be so traumatized by teachers. They are the ones who caused big changes to my personality and such. Like in primary school, I went from a talkative girl to a mute. Then now... I don't even know what will happen to me.

Maybe I'll just let it go and not return anymore. It'll benefit both sides, and stop the whole matter. I'm letting it go, but the other side I'm not sure and I don't wish to bother anymore. I'm not a complete idiot who doesn't know how to read the atmosphere and the treatment you're giving me. I just want to say that the sentence is not directed at you at all, and I don't understand why you just took it as it's directed at you and thus causing this whole misunderstanding.

I guess life is just never a straight smooth road. It's a rough, bumpy road.

bloody hell angry

2011-06-02T17:08:00.002+08:00

To be honest, I feel that I'm way too lenient towards things, like everything. When in band, I'm lenient, and now at Dreality, I felt that I'm way too lenient. Looking over the people who broken the rules and I really couldn't accept this rule to be broken this time round. C'mon, editing the poster after it was done? Even though it was just a simple removing of background, I still felt that it was very rude to do so. Without the permission of the original creator. If they need amendments, they could always ask right? Even though I said I don't save PSDs, but some things could be removed with just the graphic itself.

I had tolerate enough rule breakers, but this time round, it was too overboard. This is so rude! Grr.

It's not like I couldn't control my temper or feelings well you know. I rarely flare up at stuffs and usually absorb it in and forget it the next day. Oh gosh. This. THIS TIME ROUND. It's too ridiculous. Oh my head.

mountains

2011-05-24T20:49:00.004+08:00

So, my table is filled with mountain of books again.

Truthfully, I'm so damn lazy to tidy up already. But I kept having the idea of decorating my study table but then again, laziness took over and stopped all thoughts. Had been doing my paper one homework for the afternoon, glad that I forced myself to start on it on 3. Kekeke.

It's getting a little annoying sometimes.

Didn't manage to go out with mum with breakfast today. I'm not a good daughter, lol. I actually woke at 8.40am, but after visiting the toilet, I felt so sleepy that I will die to lie on my bed at that moment. For now if you let me have a choice, I would choose my free macbreakfast. Oh life. -_-

OTL. Battle with the laziness. I always lose.
this is the reason why this post is stopping now.

but i'm worried for my sister :(

pooof

2011-05-23T21:48:00.004+08:00

Just another urge to start blogging all over again. Without a blog, it seems like I lost control of myself sometimes, growing up? I don't call that growing up definitely. Maybe a different mindset, but actions wrong are just wrong. I need to just start thinking twice before acting next time already.

This blog, yes, I'm picking up again like how I pick up my Dreality website. This poor thing is going to be a place for me to rant and rant and obviously there's no one coming to read. Considered livejournal but blah, blogger is easier to access and stuff. I guess I'll go install the blogger app on my phone or something, so that I could blog and blog wherever I am.

Stepped down from band, my second family/home for 3 years and a few months maybe? I still remember how I used to escape band practices when I was just a secondary one student. Oh how I hated band trainings back then. Now I just miss them so much. Hmm...

Tomorrow is the annual cross country, and duh, a lazy bum like me obviously is not going to attend. Mama decided not to go to work tomorrow as well, kind of influenced by my sister and I. Hahahahaha. And she just suggested to go for macbreakfast tomorrow morning. Well, that is, if I could get off my bed successfully in the morning. :P

Mother tongue 'o' levels up in another week, I don't feel the urgency yet. It's 'O' Levels for god's sake. I guess I'll force myself to read novels later on. Some how it could help in plotting and planning for the fanfics later on. 两全其美，一箭双雕，一举两得! HAHAHAHA.

I can only say good luck to those who are attending the cross country tomorrow, esp mr shafee ROFL top in the 'sabotage' event held. Bet his class saboed him like crazy, spam votes. LOL. Mmmmm.

I shall end the comeback rant here. tata.

pssst..

Sandeul is sucha sweetheart right?!

2011-02-06T20:34:00.000+08:00

LONG AGO GONE.
tumblr is the thing naow.

Five in ONE

2010-08-21T22:10:00.003+08:00

Sorry, my ranting of TVXQ and my rubbish feelings is back.

I feel guilty. To be honest. Seriously, I felt so, so, so, guilty. I was looking at my playlist yesterday. These months I've been on a playlist without any of the boys' songs? Fail much. I can't really believe I'm surviving the auto-tuned songs in my recent playlist for months. Gosh. However, now my playlist is all dongbang. Or rather, all their songs ♥

Think back, KPOP scene now is so much auto-tuned. Companies started throwing new groups in, aiya, can't sing nevermind, auto-tune. Seriously, KPOP now, TOO MUCH NEW GROUPS. The GP Basic or something like that? Wah, please. Too young! Childhood gone. Primary six I'm still a kuku enjoying my innocent life!

Back then, all vocals. Where have the innocent kpop history went? T.T I really miss all the songs rocking with there true vocals. I was recently touched by a rehearsal dongbang did during their balloons days. Their background music is a completely instrumental one, completely. They danced, they sang with really stable voice and cheerful tone. Then yesterday I listened their MR Removed performances. Don't even need to watch to realize lah, but. After watching it, really.. Shows the differences of them with the rest of the kpop groups. This is why they remained at the spcial place in my heart. I thought SJ took over them in my heart at the bonamana-noother period. But no, actually no. Dongbang was at a really unique place of my heart. They will just shine out shinee&sj whenever I saw their name somewhere or heard them. That's the power of the love. Deep down.

They're the first kpop band I watched. They're the ones who brought me into kpop, a world I could never get out from and I would never regret joining. Don't you prefer the "old" songs, made out of pure vocals?

..

Anyway, today out with vienchew! It've been looooooooooong since I've ever gone out with her. Kakakaka, its fun, fun~! I'm bad at bloggin outings. I know she know what happens can already lah, don't need you guys know. HAHAHA.

I finished a footlong subwaymelt today. Mad appetite.

ADAMCOUPLE IS REAL. TRUST ME. LOL!

KSESSION

2010-08-15T22:04:00.004+08:00

Blogging? Definitely! :D

Yesterday was the best day ever, daebak! Finally met with my long-time-no-see primaryschool friends ♥ They've painted colours to my black-and-white primary school life. :)

Woke up from my short sleep of 5 hours sleep at 7am, to put my medicine on knee for 4 hours :o Took it out at 11, and continued to sit in front of computer. Then started flipping through wardrobe and prepareeee at 12. And zoooooom, out of house at 12:20. I was pretty nervous though, 'cause it've been like so long since we've ever met! Gossshie.

Wenxin was so on time. SUPER. Her message arrived at 12:45pm SHARP telling us she've reached. omo~ I was still on bus, thinking random stuffs. Kakakaka, and ta daaaa. I alighted. I was the second to reach! Wenxin looked sooo different from what I've expected y'know. I was like, shit, is it wx? later wrong person paiseh how. And ah ha! It's really her ^^ Qiaohan came afterwards, she's as hyper as ever lah. kakakaka. Eunice is late! Eh heh heh. But it's great meeting them ♥ Qiaohan became the tallest among all, then nobody wanna walk beside her. :X

Chat a lot of random stuffs on the way to hawker, ♥ And they have their lunch and I just sat there and stare. Wasn't hungry because of the macbreakfast in the morning :3 It was raining heavily, had trouble finding seats first, but a couple left and we took their seats :P

After eating, OFF TO KBOX. Tourguide qiaohan took us walk round and round. Binggeul binggeul binggeul binggeul~ And we finally reached kbox~ :O At first I wasn't that high in the kbox, it was qiaohan & wenxin doing the singing at first. LOL. The atmosphere was hyped up from mid till the end. The last hour is amazing! Kpop songs spammed! I was hogging onto the mic and screaming like hell. And the I Did Wrong by 2AM, whereby the girl would screamed, I screamed. LOL. Spammed dongbangdarlings' balloons as well, I swear I don't read hanguls and I just blabbered every single song. LOL. Fire by 2NE1 got us hyped up as well! heh :D I ended up in a man voice and they laughed at it. T.T But its worth it for the fun! WOOOOTS.

I couldn't describe much about this whole day, because its just so much much much much fun that we had! :D We've to meet soon, I swear we will :) Next meetup, sightseeing!

P/S: This man is so loved by me dearly for this whole SS3 spammage these 2 days. His amazing vocals, and a to-kill hairstyle that is a weakspot of mine! ♥
Jongwoon-ah, I'm waiting for January to come sooner. I'll meet you soon then! :)

ahhhhhhh!

2010-07-29T21:15:00.002+08:00

1. When you suddenly talk in a nasal voice.

* Onew - Surprised, so he just stares and smiles
* Jonghyun - Stares for a while, and then grins all of a sudden
* Kibum - Imitates you and laughs
* Minho - Gets rid of his flaming charisma and just smiles at you
* Taemin - Says “Hehe.. Nuna you’re funny…” and laughs (Wth I'll slap him! LOL! :X)

2. When you ask them to entertain you because you’re bored.

* Onew - Says he’ll go shopping with you
* Jonghyun - Brings his mp3 over, listens to it with you and falls asleep while listening
* Kibum - Tickles you and plays with you
* Minho - Silently brings two Nintendo DS and plays with you
* Taemin - Says he’ll take you to a PC room or an arcade

3. When some thugs gang up on you

* Onew - Pushes you away and gets beat up in your place
* Jonghyun - Runs over and beats them up for you
* Kibum - Calls all the sunbae he knows
* Minho - Shoots his flaming charisma on them so they run away
* Taemin - Calls the police (OMG HAHAHAH!)

4. When he goes to the army

* Onew - Tells you that you’re forbidden to look at any other guys until he comes back
* Jonghyun - Says “This oppa will come back much cooler”
* Kibum - Chatters on and on for the last time (omma key! LOL)
* Minho - Says one thing. “I’ll come back…”
* Taemin - Says “You trust me right? I’ll be back soon.”

5. When he’s back from the army

* Onew - Suddenly comes up behind you, hugs you and says “Did you wait long?”
* Jonghyun - Hugs you, tells you he missed you and also says “How am I? Isn’t oppa cooler?”
* Kibum - Smiles widely and says “Did you wait a long time?”
* Minho - Gets rid of his flaming charisma, smiles and hugs you while saying “I missed you”
* Taemin - Flies over and hugs you and says “I’m finally back!”

6. When you confess your love to him

* Onew - Listens quietly and then hugs you
* Jonghyun - Confesses together with you
* Kibum - Thanks you and gives you a present
* Minho - Takes you somewhere else and confesses his love.
* Taemin - Says he’s going to confess, too

7. When you’re crying in front of your house

* Onew - Holds you and comforts you
* Jonghyun - Comforts you, and then watches you go into the house
* Kibum - Takes you to his house and comforts you there
* Minho - Hugs you until you stop crying
* Taemin - Stays still and then cautiously talks to you

8. When you doze off on the bus

* Onew - Falls asleep first and leans on you
* Jonghyun - Falls asleep together with you, wakes up suddenly and puts his jacket over you
* Kibum - Watches you quietly
* Minho - Sits you on his lap
* Taemin - Wakes you up and tells you to sleep at home (qian da leh this answer. LOL.)

9. After your date, when you go home

* Onew - Asks “Do you want me to take you home?”
* Jonghyun - Says “Let’s go” and nothing else and takes you home
* Kibum - Says “Is your house big? Did you clean your room?” and nags you all the way until your house (ROFL!)
* Minho - Says nothing and takes you home
* Taemin - Says “Nuna, I’m scared! I’ll call you so go home by yourself!” and goes home by himself (*&@*(!&*((*#&@)

10. When you say you’re cold

* Onew - Takes his coat off for you
* Jonghyun - Buys you a windbreaker
* Kibum - Takes you into a warm coffee shop and buys you coffee
* Minho - Puts his coat around both of you
* Taemin - Says he’s cold and asks you to take off your coat for him (WTH...)

11. When you say you’re exhausted

* Onew - Asks you if you’re okay and pats your back
* Jonghyun - Tells you to cry if you’re exhausted
* Kibum - Asks what happened
* Minho - Holds you
* Taemin - Suddenly turns into Power Taemin and holds you tightly

12. When you’re walking together

* Onew - Holds your hand tightly
* Jonghyun - Says “You’re really pretty from the side…” and keeps staring at you
* Kibum - Keeps chattering (I just wanna laugh so much at this, LOL!!)
* Minho - Stares at you with his flaming charisma
* Taemin - Acts cute and talks with you

13. When you say there’s something in your eye

* Onew - Blows on your eye
* Jonghyun - Says “Stop joking” but blows on your eye anyway
* Kibum - Hits the back of your head until you cry (ITS SO MEAN!!!)
* Minho - Melts the dust with his flaming charisma
* Taemin - Says “I think there’s something in my eye too~” and has you blow on his eye

14. When SHINee comes over when you’re coming out of school

* Onew - Asks if you’re hungry and buys you food
* Jonghyun - Suddenly holds your hand and walks together
* Kibum - Packs lunch for you and feeds you
* Minho - Shoots flaming charisma while he walks over
* Taemin - Holds your hand and says “did you miss oppa?”

15. When you say you want this and that

* Onew - Buys for you without hesitation
* Jonghyun - Says “No! I don’t have money~” and buys something slightly cheaper
* Kibum - Says “Save money!” but buys it the next day and leaves it front of your house
* Minho - Glares at you with his flaming charisma
* Taemin - Says “Oppa doesn’t have money~” and begs you to buy it for him (Wa.. seriously. SPEECHLESS)

16. When you ignore all his calls and texts for a day

* Onew - Has texted you 50 times and called you 50 times
* Jonghyun - Has texted you 20 times and called you 60 times and then ran over to your house
* Kibum - Has texted you 3 times, called you 20 times and ran over to your house
* Minho - Has texted you 20 times, called you 100 times and then consistently asks you the next day what you did the day before
* Taemin - Has texted you 2 times, called you 3 times and then comes over and cries, asking why you ignored him

17. When you cry

* Onew - Holds you and comforts you
* Jonghyun - Suddenly becomes serious, pats your back and says, “Don’t cry…”
* Kibum - Says “Aigoo, my baby, don’t cry”
* Minho - Says scarily, “Who made you cry”
* Taemin - Cries with you, saying, “Nuna, why are you crying?”

18. When you’re laughing crazily because of something really funny

* Onew - Shocked, says “Ba..baby…”
* Jonghyun - Laughs crazily AT you
* Kibum - Scolds you, saying, “A girl shouldn’t laugh like that”
* Minho - Says nothing and makes you feel awkward
* Taemin - Laughs crazily WITH you

19. When you gift him with a sweater you’ve made yourself

* Onew - Extremely touched, says “Wow… Baby, thanks…”
* Jonghyun - Complains that it looks weird, but wears it extremely often
* Kibum - Confused, says, “Huh, I never taught you stuff like this”
* Minho - Only says “thanks”
* Taemin - Acts cute to show his gratitude

20. When you kiss him on the cheek

* Onew - Blushes brightly but kisses you
* Jonghyun - Says, “You started it” and kisses you deeply (OMG DAMN SWEET -faints-)
* Kibum - Gets shocked and says, “Oh my god, what’re you doing”
* Minho - Clears his throat and makes the situation awkward
* Taemin - Sprouts nosebleed (Extremely cute ROFL)

21. When you’re with him at a swimming pool in a bikini and guys stare at you

* Onew - Puts a towel over you silently
* Jonghyun - Curses everyone out silently
* Kibum - Starts scolding you, “What were you thinking?!”
* Minho - Scares everyone with his flaming charisma so no one can stare.
* Taemin - Says “Nuna, I don’t like sexy women” and makes you go change

22. When you call suddenly really late at night

* Onew - Woke up because of your call and is sleepy, but says he wasn’t sleeping and stays on the phone with you
* Jonghyun - Says “who told you to call this late” but sings you a sweet lullaby
* Kibum - Nags you about waking up because of you, but all of a sudden you realize he’s been talking more than you have (Key ah.. LOVES TO TALK ALOT. I mean nag. LOL.)
* Minho - Worries about you because you aren’t asleep yet
* Taemin - Is very honest and tells you he’s sleepy and is going to go to sleep

23. During the finals week, when you’ve studied at school until really late and call him to take you home

* Onew - Asks you where you are, runs over as fast as he can and brings hot cocoa with him
* Jonghyun - Tells you that he’s too tired and it’s too much work, so you’re walking home alone upset, but suddenly appears and wraps his arm around you to surprise you (♥♥♥!)
* Kibum - Says “Since when do you study?” but also says “Don’t go anywhere”
* Minho - Before you call him, he calls you to ask if you want to get picked up
* Taemin - Comes over in his mom’s car to give you a ride

24. When you show up wearing a really short skirt

* Onew - Clears his throat because he doesn’t know where to keep his gaze
* Jonghyun - Says “Sheesh… I don’t know what to do with you..” and takes off his jacket to tie it around your front and walks closely behind you (ULTRA LOVEEE! ♥)
* Kibum - Hits you and says he won’t hang out with you if you dress like this again
* Minho - Doesn’t say anything, but every time a guy stares at you glares at them with his flaming charisma
* Taemin - Very honestly says, “Wow, your legs are really pretty, nuna”

25. When you’re in pain in because of really high heels

* Onew - Suddenly takes you to a bench, sits you down and gives you a foot massage
* Jonghyun - Goes into a store, buys a pair of cheap slippers for himself and gives you his sneakers
* Kibum - Nags you about it, suddenly gives you a piggy back ride, but doesn’t stop nagging
* Minho - Stares at you for a while with his flaming charisma, then kneels down and tells you “Get on”
* Taemin - Doesn’t know what to do because you’re hurting

26. When you say, “Let’s break up”

* Onew - Says nothing except “Good bye” and then when you turn your back smiles sadly and cries
* Jonghyun - Says “Let me hold you for the last time” and then lets you go, but cries his eyes out when you’re gone
* Kibum - Suddenly stops joking around and asks you if you’re joking and says he won’t let you go
* Minho - Stares at you, and when you turn around takes your arm and tells you not to go
* Taemin - Whines, asks why and says no like a child

27. After you’ve broken up

* Onew - Makes sure you don’t know, but visits the front of your house and stares at your window
* Jonghyun - Calls you when he’s drunk and cries his heart out
* Kibum - Texts you things like “You really aren’t going to see me?” “I miss you” “I can’t let you go”
* Minho - Calls anonymously and hangs up after he hears your voice
* Taemin - Cries because he doesn’t know what to do after the first person that he fell in love with dumped him

I CAN'T HELP IT. I HAVE TO POST THIS.
Bolded ones are my favourites :3

Feel?

2010-07-25T16:42:00.002+08:00

I used to walk to school, looking at how people sat in their daddy's mummy's car, and reach school easily, getting down from the car and off they went in. I've always envied them.

But now, I've to ride in my mummy's taxi to school, and everyday. I don't feel any happiness, because the way like that I'm wasting my parents' time instead, so how should I feel? I've no idea, no idea.

It'll be long till next band practice, oh holy. I miss my trombone.

stunned,

2010-07-12T21:42:00.002+08:00

I'm finally ranting about my reactions for SHINee teaser photos. Today is the release of the teaser photo of the last member, Key. I'm completely speechless about these teaser photos since yesterday. Well, I shall start then.

Firstly, it was our charismatic minho's teaser photo dropped on last thursday. Yes, shocking abs you see. Shocking hair, more of that. It seems that his hair was shaved...! I'm pretty calmed for this one, since he wasn't my bias, but that night was horrible. I was so worried for bling D:

The next day, its our maknae~ He's pretty nevertheless, I spot long hair there. :D I don't know if its the picture quality or what, the white strings around him makes me think that he's a puppet in this picture. New observation made! :P

The following day, DUBU ONEW! This is where I start panicking damn hard. Center parting? What's with it?! With the epic green headband. I don't know what to say, it's like ... It gave me an impression of those 拉拉队 from the western countries y'know. :X I don't know why I think of that but.. Sigh.

This fateful day.. I'll never forget it. I was woke up by Atikah's message in the morning around 9+ am, I know her message carries some bad news as her reaction is just.. And yea, I immediately went to check my bling's picture on mobile web, but it was too small no matter how much I zoomed, so I on-ed the computer. I am speechless. I swear I am. I prayed so much, whined so much, complained so much that I don't want abs showing from my dearest bling. I got owned, badly. I don't want abs, you show me his back. I'm damn speechless SME, I got pwned. You exposed his back, and his back thighs too? Why do you guys expose so much.. T.T What's with the towel-like thing covering his butt area. Seriously, I'm pretty disappointed in this.. I don't like easy guys.. :X

Lastly, Atikah's bias is here. Xinyi first read out what her friend told her 'bout Key's picture in class today. Side is botak. :X Atikah was panicking and did not want to listen to anything about it. Well, I got home at around 5pm and I saw.. Another speechless one. I'm sorry but his hair looks detached from his head in my opinion. He shaved, a lot. Bold hairstyle, he's looking pretty good.. But well..

In all, my guess for the concept : Time travel back to European history, warriors/leaders of the past. Thats my guess, badboy doesn't look like it. I just hope their comeback will really surprise me and win my heart back, because currently, they're at the third place in my heart, out of my 3 bias group.

Okay now. I know you've been waiting for my fan account on 2AM ShengSiongShow that happened yesterday. To avoid disappointment, I've to say. I'm not really a BIG fan of 2AM, I went there for the sake of listening to their beautiful ballads. So don't expect much. Please.

2PM I met xinyi at hougangmall, and we had our heavy lunch there. Pretty much spazzing about bling's photo then, as it was just released. Continue spazz about kpop while eating, and brought some snacks and headed to the interchange.

We were damn kuku lah can, we didn't really know which stop to get off. So asked the bus driver, tadaaa up the slope and off the bus~ Yea we saw the mediacorp sign at first and took pictures around like a tourist. Woopsie, we're tourists once again! :P

I thought we'll walk a long distance till we reach Mediacorp, but NO. We only walked for a while and we saw the Mediacorp sign~! And we soon reach the reception area. Tons of 2AM fans were already there queuing. Shock, of course. :X We reached at around 5pm, and we only waited a while and we could go in. Letting them check our tickets, we then were brought into the carpark area outside the theater. It was very, very organized (Y) ! No cutting queues occured at the carpark, so awesome shit ♥. We sat down and waited, me & xinyi were practically crapping around, taking pictures, spending our time.

Soon, it was around 6+pm, the security guards finally lead us to the theater, it's small, I swear its small. The two of us grabbed the center seats around the middle, and started taking pictures around. The Singapore fanclub of 2AM, IAMinSG then tried to teach the fan chants, but it was pretty fail and the newyiqing was really damn funny. He's a changmin-lookalike! Xinyi had been telling me since we sat down in the theater. DAMN LOOK ALIKE. But he's damn humorous okay, he even ad-lip '爱' as it was showing that time. :X Dam hilarious, its probably worth going each week to see how he entertains the crowd! :P

Yea, soon the show started. People started shouting 'desmond! lai yi ling!" sorta stuffs to catch the MCs attention. Desmond is handsome lah PLEASE! OMG. :X Okay soon, around 9:45pm! 2AM! Crazy crowd screamed like no tomorrow. Please, the fanchant became of no use. Everyone kept screaming and screaming and only screamed the 'bonae' part. -_-"

Okay ignoring the fans, 2AM sang Can't let you go even If I die. Was hoping for I Did Wrong instead, but its kay :D Jinwoon walked into the stage first, I was like. JINWOON MAKNAE! So tall.. Yes his fluffy hair attracts me. He came in with a expressionless face, but later smiled like how he usually smile. IT WAS DAMN SWEET ♥. After a few seconds, Jokwon then came in, followed by Changmin then Seulong. They did not smile at all throughout their performance, they were very very serious in singing it. Of course, I managed to hear their voice out of those crazy screaming fans.. Its just pure awesome. Awesome, and more awesome. At the very last part whereby they did that grabbing action, we all melted. Maybe. :X

Then go on with the interview, Jinwoon is ALWAYS smiling. Jokwon is just purely cute. He kept waving to us, then later 2AM showed a ♥ sign to the fans after we said "Saranghae 2AM!" Changmin mentioned that they like CHILLICRAB! Seriously, every kpop idols came here and ate chilli crab! HAHA. :X Then go into commercial, 2AM then exited. All of them waved madly, and showed ♥ to us! Jokwon pose his epic kkap pose before leaving, leaving us all the fans laughing like crazy! :P

But one thing, I'm pretty disappointed that they're still fans leaving when the show didn't end yet. At least please show some respect to the hosts and crew, despite 2AM is leaving later. I am a fan too, I wouldn't choose to leave. I even saw some ridiculous comments telling us to understand that 2AM i s leaving right away after sss. So? That doesn't mean you guys could just rush out of the studio when the show haven't ended yet, though you've your stalking vans waiting or what so ever. If you wanna send them off, you shouldn't attend the show at first having the mindset of leaving early. -_- Its rude in any way. But well. Majority stayed, lucky. Then the free posters, ARGH. The SSS sticker was just in the same row as ours! The side seat! We should've sat at the side... And we could get the autographed poster! :X Just so close! ..

Well, seriously speaking I feel nothing at the SSS. Its only when I stepped into my house, and think back. I might really love 2AM. I don't know, this feeling is just weird. I shall spazz some days later. :x Alright. ending here!

kpop fans explored singapore again!

No other than you!

2010-07-08T19:48:00.003+08:00

I promised to post about No Other since the day it was released. Well, I'm here blogging already~

My day was absolutely hell yesterday, and I came back and saw No Other MV released. I was, OHMYGOD, totally cheered my mood up a lot, from a tiring horrible day. The whole MV, to me, was like how our SJ boys confess to someone they love ♥! It's damn sweet, just by looking at the video you'll be smiling like a retard there already. Look at their lives, they are so happy. Ofcourse, the MV is absolutely ♥ too!

For me? Aigooooo! :P

I swear I replayed the MV for a thousand time already, I'll always pause at Hae's! Seriously, hae-ah, you don't have to practice how to give the rose. 'Cause no matter how you confess I'll still accept one please. HAHAHA. :P God, it'll be heaven if any one of them confessed to me. HAHAHAHA. -dream on-

Ommo! Teuk ah! ♥

God, I just love his smile can. He took pictures, so is he gonna confess with the pictures? Or he's just a photographer taking down their confessing moments inside? :P Seriously ♥, look at how happy he is browsing through the pictures! Ultra sweetness ♥

Ofcourse I'm saving my favourite scene for the last. Hao xi zai hou tou, right!

FOR ME? :D ♥!!!

I died a million times! Just how sweet is this confession? A bunch of balloons, given out. At last, a last balloon for you! A ring was attached to it! HOW SWEET IS THAT? Its like a situation that only happen in fairytales! :X If jongwooon seriously did this to me, I'll be like touched ttm can, look at his mesmerizing eyes! I could just faint on spot saying yes :P !

End of spazzing. I might love 2AM after this week, who knows? :P You know that I've no favourites in 2AM yet, I wonder who will be my bias if they really jumped into my heart? :P ~

Some thoughts,

2010-07-02T21:55:00.002+08:00

Not bashing my top bias out of all the kpop groups I love, but I just wanna rant some stuffs about them. I was so disappointed to watch the advertising video for SMTOWN ASIA TOUR concert, showing purely "U-KNOW, MAX", just like that. Its like telling all of us, JYJ leaving DBSK is a official thing already. I'm not taking side of JYJ nor Homin, as my bias for these 5 boys are Jaemin, which both are separated into this 'two groups'.

I'm gonna rant about taking both sides. As for taking the trio's side, if 3 sued SME and now their chance of winning this case is BIG, what if the 5 left together? The winning chance, isn't it BIGGER? As you see, the super real TOP korea band, which agency don't want them if they all left SME together? You answer that.

Taking Homin's side, they couldn't leave or join the trio in suing SME maybe because of their parents objection? Yea, that might be a reason. This makes me wonder, if JYJ had ever told them about these before. Yes, I think they might have discussed about it. Thats what I think.

On the whole, long contracts. You think. Long contracts could prevent sudden contract end issues like what SS501 is experiencing through now. (Though their problem is kinda solved and should be a happy ending) But slave contracts.. Mmm, it's a different thing already.

Well, I think that SME should really give in this time round. I believe our boys wanna perform together on stage again. The fans don't wish to see them separated and upset too. Their bond is strong, just that this whole incident made their relationship awkward already.

Hopefully, there'll be a good, best, beautiful, happy ending for this whole case. It've been nearly a year of worrying.
Always keep the faith aye.

2010-06-22T20:00:00.003+08:00

I'm just bored and wanna blog. My mouth is filled with durian smell currently. I wonder how am I gonna play my trombone tomorrow ehhehheh. :d

Anyway, I just finished catching up on WGM, with all the eng subs available on the youtube. Kamsahamidaaa. :D I laughed until my dad thought there's a roach again so I screamed (?) Is my laughter so alike to screaming? LOL. Hilarious shit.

Oh shucks my internet dc again kthxbye.

lose it,

2010-05-25T20:17:00.002+08:00

Why me, why me, why me. I wonder why. Left with 2 ways to walk, but both are like totally blocked. Oh fml. I don't want you to be influence by her, but I can't control who you hang out with right? If I was to be stricter, wouldn't we distanced? Wouldn't you be more influenced by her unknowingly, which is what I scared the most? You're the only one left, my last hope. This really starting to frighten me. If all things went the wrong way, I'll rather die already. I can't seem to look at any bright side of this matter, it doesn't seem that there's any.
I may look as if I don't really treasure you, but the truth is I couldn't afford to lose your trust. I really started predicting all the worst to come. Oh god, oh my god. There's a lot I wanna do to push you go further, but I'm afraid you can't understand and it'll cause unhappiness. I don't know what to do anymore, you, tell me what you want so you're satisfied? I guess I really need to talk to you someday about all these. I, don't wanna keep anything from you. I hope, you won't too.

Let's see tomorrow, yeah?
The more I look at it, the more I'm afraid.

MIINAH!

2010-05-12T17:35:00.002+08:00

FUCKYEAH SERIOUSLY I WANT TO CHANGE MY NAME TO MIINAH ALREADY. LOL!
BoNaMaNa MV.
I'VE WAITED SO LONG. ITS OUT ITS OUT! My dearest suju boys ARE BACK! I'm like damn happy right now, exams are over and I came home to see this good news! AND WATCH THE HOTTEST MV! I swear I'm gonna die soon if I watch it a million times!! I really wanna button up teukie's suit. Don't anyhow show your previous abs! I'll be heartbroken. :X -mad fangirl mode-
Hae, YOU HAVE BICEPS YEAAAA. You've been working out, with amber&minho? HAHAS! You're becoming a man alreadyyyyyyyyyy!! God, I really wanna cover teukie's abs. You're not an easy man PARK JUNGSU!
What surprises me is at the dance break, KYU IS INCLUDED IN IT! The 3 best dancers are up, kyu is in too? WOWWWW. Kyu is going perfect already isn't he, perfect voice, now good dancing skills? -screams-

I can't get over it! I DOUBT I COULD. BONAMANA BONAMANA BONAMANA!

trust?

2010-05-09T11:53:00.004+08:00

Surprisingly, after reading the news on allkpop, it failed to make me think bad of JSC. What I thought is, what they're doing is right, correct? Signing another separate contract with Avex, what's wrong with it? You guys can't expect them to just sit there and wait for these to be over and SME might sue them anytime right? They're entertainer, they need to do something to bring in income for their family right.. -_-

How would they trust SME when they've brought such problems to them? If their contract was a fair one, not a slave contract, would these happen? Hell no. Can't they just both take a step back, then compromise? Everything could be solved easily, why till the court. Tsk.

Fuck life. Return us money already.

Teehee.

2010-05-07T23:39:00.002+08:00

Distractions. Yes, I need them.

MIINAH! 13/5. Yes yes the teaser I see a lot a lot a lot of hot bodies. 13/5 13/5! *excited. I've been really damn random since then. These are the symptoms yea? ITS KAY. I BELIEVE! BELIEVE! I feel like blogging a long post but I don't know what to talk 'bout. Kay I'm being random super random ultra random I'm just being crazy in my own world.

HAH I'LL GO WATCH DRAMA. Best idea ever. I'm sucha smartgirl.
And I've to wake @ 10 tmr. Yes yes. Have to. If not vienchew might smack me upside down for putting her aeroplane.

Short fangirl post

2010-05-06T21:24:00.005+08:00

HELLYEAH BEAST'S SPECIAL ON MCOUNTDOWN WAS DAMN SO AWESOMMEEEEEEE. The fanchants are ultra accurate and owns the whole stage. I'm ultra high wee. And I really fail. I can't recognize any of them except Yoseob. Sorry I forgotten your favourite again xinyi. :/ I really fail at remembering names.. I swear I'll spam watch them till I know every single one of them after MYE. Or maybe now...................... -evil smile-

I totally died watching junsu's intoxication pv. Fuck yeah I watched for a thousand times already, I was very shocked by the dance. @@...

Its very rare for me to be blogging like this much everyday.. Weird. Maybe some screw came out. Yea..
I tried my very best to be happy. Not gonna worry anyone.

One random thing. I think bad mood really kills your health.

Blurness

2010-05-05T15:59:00.002+08:00

To say frankly, I read my geog notebook, those stuff I drew at Chapter 4, I'm wondering what the crap is it. Shit shit shit. Kay let me go figure it out. I'll edit this post later to blog more :x Exams revision brings me A LOT OF trouble. I pulled my neck muscle when rolling on my bed memorizing my geog. Let's see I'll break any bones during this revision anot.. Oww.. my neck is damn stiff now.

Can't,

2010-05-03T22:09:00.002+08:00

DON'T THINK. Don't think about it. Don't think. Don't push people just because of you can't take it. Don't. Think about others. Think! Don't think about the matter! Let time heal. Let. Time. Heal! Don't push her, don't push her. DON'T URGE HER! Time, time time time time! Everyone needs time, only you don't need! So think about others! Don't force people. Don't, don't don't. Its your own fault that causes this, people needs time! No no no no no don't think.

Sorry, the post above was meant to scold myself and wake myself up.

Kay, I'm kay now. Heehees. I wonder how people can smile when they're being scolded. Like the person who served me in the optical shop that day. My mum totally scold him upside down and he still kept his politeness and continue with a smile. God, good service (Y) But I'm not going there to do my spectacles again. rofl.

A spectacles frame wider than normal, the lens MAGNIFIES your view. Hey, I'm NOT BLIND. WHY THE MAGNIFY.

Its raining, its pouring

2010-05-03T12:40:00.003+08:00

Hell yeah its raining. At such a sunny day. Its a hint for me to study yea? YEA. :D

These few days have been quite hectic, like going for the yulgang legends gathering on Friday, went down to optical shop to make a new spectacles on Saturday, and slacked a whole lot yesterday. And I'm so upset yesterday 'cause elie told me he had extra tickets for ZUNO showcase and was jio-ing people to go. 18 tickets, only he and his friend went. Wtphuck I'm so upset. SO SO SO UPSET! I missed the chance to see Junsu. Oh gosh. /dies. I felt like slaughtering him, but ah fine. Its fate -_- I'll wait for concerts.

And this year, 2010, is really fucked up. Its not the first time I'm feeling so sick until-i-want-to-die of life. I'm pushing the limit. Damn it, not suppose to be a despressing post. Forget it. Pui.

Anyway, on Friday, went to catch iron man II after buffet dinner. Oh damn, I thought the main lead who is the real iron man is a fake iron man and evil one. Until the middle of the movie I get it he's the real and good one. -_- Nothing special 'bout the plot, just the graphics that is amazing. God, I want watch Shrek Forever After. Caught the advertisement in the cinema and is hella funny. It made the whole cinema filled with laughter. "Hey Donkey, Can I borrow your tongue?" "SAY WHAT? Uh uh, no hell, heh heh." -blingblingeyes- "I don't care how big your eyes get player its not going down.." -blingblingeyes- "Ah ow. Alright."

randomness

2010-04-28T23:45:00.002+08:00

Its no doubt I'll have tons of time left for english..

Half an hour for both paper 1 and 2. 1 hour total up. Just donate this 1 hour to my SS exam man. I'm so going bonkers for this SS exam. Damn. Fucked. Up.

the midnight,

2010-04-26T03:09:00.002+08:00

To speak truthfully, I done my physics at 1am and I spent my rest of the 2 hours drawing.. I told ya its impossible for thamyuni to chiong. At least I did my physics homework. ^o^

Kay, I shall get at least 3 hours of sleep.

the aftermath

2010-04-24T15:00:00.002+08:00

Aftermath of standing board(broad?) jump and inclined pull up :
Pulled back muscle when doing chinese listening comprehension.
Ankle having weird sensation.

Vivienchew dared to laugh at me when I pulled my back muscle. ITS OUCH CAN. My back is effing stiff right now. @@~ And I DID STUDIED CHEMISTRY TODAY. But apparently, its a rainy day and Chemistry is making chemical reactions in thamyuni's brain and thus it went haywire and she did something really out of her mind(brain).

I bet you guys are laughing like hell nao. Or agreeing with the last peekture.
I tell you, this is damn stress-relieving. People, start mugging! But take breaks sometime~ This is how thamyuni's break is like. Heee, I felt so light now, all stress threw away~ LOL.

Tata~ La cha la cha ta ta!

mishap

2010-03-24T19:43:00.002+08:00

Oh god, I hope no other mishap will happen to a blurkiddo like me before SYF. I just fell off, yes, fell off the stairs and twisted my ankle. I sat on the spot for the whole 10 seconds struggling to get up. The worst thing ever, I'm alone! I limped back home miserably. -_-

Its okay now, ITS OKAY NOW. LET ME MARCH TOMORROW! ):

hi, world.

2010-03-21T17:20:00.004+08:00

I want to bid goodbye to spectacles so desperately. Even though my eyesight is improving a little by a lil now, sometimes I just have the urge to give up and go for contacts straight away. Sometimes I feel like having a new spectacles. Ah, what do I want seriously. -_-

SYF rehearsal is this coming tuesday, gonna miss lessons. Amaths, emaths. AHHHHH. Though its great to skip lessons but think about how are you going to catch up later on. One lesson, mrsli teaches a lot. T_T Anyway, my homework for this march holidays is to able to recognize U-Kiss members. I think I somehow can remember all of them generally, there are 7 members right? I can recognize Eli, Kevin, Dongho, Kibum, Soohyun(a little). Alexander & Kiseop.. I always mix them up. Ahh. I can do it! I promise xinyi I'll recognize them soon! x.x

Tomorrow is a school day again.

Oh I love blogging so much now that I'm editting this post again. I seriously need to recognize U-Kiss members fully and choose my favourite quickly. To speak the truth, I'm walking around the house dancing Shock recently. Its madly addictive! Everyday I shock, Every night I shock. I can't seem to recognize BEAST too. I suck seriously. -_-

AFTER READING SOME FAN ACCOUNTS OF SS2 IN MALAYSIA, Please, SS2 COME SINGAPORE TOO PLEASE. ♥ I'm all over SUJU again. People, HIGH WITH ME :D

after that,

2010-03-20T23:18:00.002+08:00

After the 5 hectic days, today is my start of holiday and will officially end tomorrow 12am. ): But well, I just feel like bloggin all of a sudden so just let me crap a little now.

Last weekend, its awesome, really, awesome. Sunday, went out early. Yes, I saw key's hand up close. I know you guys all seen them like live at E-Awards. To you, maybe this is nothing. To me, it meant a lot. I think again and again, I THINK I SAW JONGHYUN'S BACK TOO. :) I won't elaborate much.
After that we went on having a fun time taking peektures. Our jumpshot is kinda phail D:

Later in the evening, we went off to meet the rest at Vivo, to pick gift and head to MsWang (ops, MrsOng) 's wedding~ Peektures all over at FB, spamming around. Picture speaks a thousand words, so yea.

I suddenly don't feel like continuing again. BYE.

dead at heart,

2010-03-02T20:49:00.002+08:00

I'm tired. Really tired to the point whereby my feets are stuck on ground. My butt is stuck on this chair. I feel like sleeping. But to think that I've to crawl onto my bed I'm so sick of it already. When my bed is only one step behind me. My mind is blank. Yes, blank. Understand the true meaning of tired, I'm ultra tired now. i don't know what am I typing already.

Why am I even blogging? Ah, I don't know. I'm mad probably. Because of what? Maybe 'cause of this whole 2PM controversy that's driving me mad. Ah whatever. Bye. Why am I even posting this shitzxs.

Ha, ha.

2010-02-28T18:43:00.000+08:00

To think I supported them as 6 members before.
To think I believe that they always don't want Jaebum to leave.
To think I cared about their feelings and decided giving the support they needed.
To think I use this as a motivation to keep me going on for yesterday's band practice.
To think I..

I'm utterly disappointed. Totally.
Oktaecyeon sneered at the fans. Haha, funny right. Hwangchansung told the fans not to doubt their friendship. Is friendship supposed to be like this?

27 February 2010, this is the day I'm not a Hottest anymore.

Bye, I've one lesser group fandom.

If they're really bribed into saying these, I'll forgive. But for now, its a no-no.

P/S. Some fans are thinking that fans quitting as Hottests are ruining 2PM6's career? Think further. Its their heartless replies to the fans at the conference yesterday did so. It really let us down so much. Please spare a thought for Hottests too. Don't kept on thinking in the view of them. They're not the only one suffering. All of us, are.

Truth, please enlighten us. I'm still carrying the slight hope that this is all lies.

After much thinking.
Now is not the problem with Jay leaving, do you guys know? Fans are disappointed in 1:59PM's answers in the conference. Sneered at the fans, saying Jay's life is a dirty one. Could any one of us tolerate these?
Hottests are all confused. Strong-will ones have already decided to stop being a Hottest. Confused ones are remained in confusion, wondering this and that. Angry ones, simply throwing their anger everywhere. The scene surrounding 1:59PM right now is in a complete mess.

Me? I'm waiting. Still waiting. My heart was broke, frozen, burnt, badly destroyed till I've no feelings to everything now. Please forgive me if I did anything to anger you guys these days, alright? My mental state is unstable.

with all my heart,

2010-02-16T01:44:00.004+08:00

I'm falling deeper in this. When could I ever get out of these? Never.

You guys are amazing. How could these heavenly voices exist? Yes, only you guys. Only, five of you. With all my heart, this is beautiful. Absolutely.

-floating with this 6-minute song-

This will be my new stress relieve and relaxing song. All of them, are just perfect. Ballad, ohmy. -melts- I just can't get over with this song. Its on repeat mode on my WMA now. :) I swear I'm gonna listen to it for the whole midnight. I miss their voice, too much.

Saranghae, and happy chinese new year people. :) In a effing good mood.

On another note. My chinese new year sucked. But well. After listening with all my heart, I'm all happy again even though with that stack of homework waiting for me later. Teehee. I can smile while sleeping already. :)

Chinese neeeeeeew year!

2010-02-14T00:17:00.002+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!
have a sweet valentine's day~

Sent out sms greetings phew -wipes off sweat- I know I miss out A BUNCH of 3e2ians, but its the thoughts that counts!

I'm a lazy blogger, lazy lazy. So I'm ending here :D

This woman is trying to get antis? LOL. Eunicelessy & Qiaohan confirm haunt her down. LOLOL.

feeling extremely blank,

2010-02-07T11:30:00.005+08:00

I don't know what's wrong but I'm just feeling super blank. Can't bring myself to do anything. I've spent a few hours thinking yesterday after I reach home. I've decided not to be kpo to maintain the affairs unless people ask me for. These designing stuffs seriously, I've the urge to give up. Representative from TP came a few days back to give a talk on their courses trying to pull students in. Well looking at the design course, I don't know. This morning I've the sudden feeling that I want to do photography. But, I don't know..

Oh my, my life is getting from bad to worst. Truthfully, ah forget it. Its a scary feeling, I don't know. There's so much to worry about. I'm bound to have white hair like Joanne. FML.

I wonder, I wonder.
I really wanna change.
Whatever. New year is coming.

10:24pm.
Had a massive cleanup! For CNY. :D Tons of stuffs being throw away mercilessly, many memories being throw awayyyy!

Cleared away my e-pop magazines mostly. And posters from it. Take note there's a SS501 poster being throw away. Jungmin's face is at there. People will hate me for that. LOL. Some magazines are being kept, as seen from the second picture. The third picture! AHHH. The small A5/6 size of calendars and postcards! Pasted on my table :D

Everything is so clean now at my table. There's even one empty shelf! Teehee. So much being cleared away~

Heartbeat for me baby! ♥

feeling guilty,

2010-01-31T19:38:00.003+08:00

Its chaotic. Seriously everyone did not expect the crowd to be THIS HUGE and there still some amazingly strong fans that forced open the door. Everything unexpected, seriously.. Our boys look troubled going into/out their van. On the fansign, they smiled sweetly. God, it must be scary & hard for them seh. All squeezing like mad, crowding around like mad. There's even one security guard scolding vulgarities to the fans in the carpark, making way for SHINee. For goodness sake, have some manners please?

SFI already stated please don't do stuffs that will bring shame to SGShawols' reputation as well as to SHINee's. Force open the door seriously, making the door spoilt. Yes the door was spoilt. Security guards were even scolding us that we're making a fool out of ourselves when all of us that crowd around the entrance chiong-ed up to level four.

Seriously.. Everything is a mess. Just hope that there'll be a more organized event and suitable place next time they come Singapore. Seriously.

In any case. I saw JONG'S SWEET SMILE ON THE TV! ♥
I'm feeling guilty to run into the forced opened entrance at the start too. ):

my dorkiest boojae

2010-01-26T22:38:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday 24th birthday, dearest boojae.
Its anther year, another precious day, another year old.
Whatever that might happen, true cassies will always respect you guys' decision.
Supporting you guys always, as five.
Deep down in every cassie's heart, we only hope you guys could be happy.
And of course, not worsening your strong 6 years as dongbang's friendship.
In any case, I hope they've gotten you prezzies!
Happy birthday my deardeardear joongie! :D

again and again,

2010-01-24T19:45:00.002+08:00

I've like two homework waiting for me to complete them for the whole day, yet I haven't even touch them for a single bit. 'Cause I've kept myself occupied for the whole day, doing random stuffs. I swear my eyesight did improve a little as I can see a little clearer without spectacles now. Its working, abit. Bit by bit I guess. I'm gonna go down to get that pinhole glasses on monday or wednesday. You know I've gotten damn desperate for everything these days.

Next sunday is gonna be awesome. A super awesome one. You'll see me jumping around in school like mad, probably, this week and the week after this coming week. Why? Its written all over on my face. LOL.

I wonder how dorky could Onew get.
He fell off the chair because he laughed too hard on IMR.

Seunghyun owns with his ringdingdong dance. Its.. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Should I cut short my hair. You know what, vivienchew had the same idea of short hairstyle we wish to get if we wanted to chop off our long hair. Which is what my sister's hairstyle is now. Inverted bob. But her slope sucks lah, LOL. (Y)

Facebook is dying on me. Fine, I'll go do my homework. :(

whatever, anything

2010-01-19T22:46:00.003+08:00

I swear I'm a friendly girl and I don't bite.
It seems like I'm hard to approach and such. I've been hearing these for the past freaking years.

Well in any case, I'm on the mission to get my perfect eyesight back. My degree was super low during primary 3, god dammit I don't know why I've became so reliant on the spectacles and my degree increases each year. Yes, I'm starting to improve it. Did research and stuffs, do you know spectacles actually increases your degree over the years? That's why people are frequently changing spectacles each year. Don't wear your spectacles when you don't need it. Teehee.

Proceed on with eye 'exercises' later on. Seen responses from the net that they threw away their spectacles after several months. I'm aiming for that by the end of this year. Yes. I desperately wanna get perfect vision. So mum won't nag me for getting new spectacles each year and using the same old reason that the whle family have perfect eyesight why I'm not.

Having perfect eyesight will save a lot of money. Each year a few hundred bucks. I could have brought tons of albums with this money. So yea, I'm not gonna change spectacles for this year and see if my vision improves really a few months/weeks later. Teehee.

I'm gonna get depression sooner or later. Chh.

I'm going to bed. Yes its early, but I'm gonna wake early tomorrow to pack my bag. My eyes are too tired..

listen to my heartbeat!

2010-01-17T17:06:00.003+08:00

Checkout my sexyeyes junsu :3
I swear this goodbye stage on inkigayo is the most awesome heartbeat performance ever. Especially the Hottests' new fan chant. "We will wait for Park Jaebum, We will wait for 2PM" Fuck seriously, its damn touching duh! SHINee bid goodbye to us too, but they're appearing on Idol Maknae on 23rd. Mwuahaha. Gonna laugh till I die by then. Kay, so my every weekend eye-candy only left with Yonghwa. :3 No autotunes, OWN UR ASSES.

onew's eyes!

2010-01-15T22:47:00.002+08:00

Finally cured my unhappiness. Sleeping will just forget everything. Alright, get the mood up!

Heyos! I'm back from CAMP!

ONEW'S EYES!
Yes, its the only thing I'm gonna remember forever.
Camp is awesome, I can't believe how my class bonded so well even on the first day itself. Everyone was so freaking high and on the loose, doing the most craziest thing that we couldn't imagine. Going through muds and rain, splashing waters, this camp is pure ownage.

We believe we've gotten the best PMs out of the rest, they're awesome! Timothy has Onew's eyes. THATS IT. Atikah, Xinyi & me were taking about it so much. Atikah discovered this amazing thing first. Teehee. Brendan looks like my cousin, LOL.

3E2'10 got to plan the CO Night/Evening! God damn they're just so awesome. Yes, I'm not regretting appealing to 3E2 anymore. :D I'm enjoying my stay here in 3E2~

It's so touching/freaky that the whole class cried together this morning. PMTimothy was saying so much and that everyone cried. I don't know my reasons for crying either, but probably is I was affected by people surrounding me, they're all crying! Yes, I'm not those kind that will cry, and this is your once in a lifetime you'll see thamyuni cry. LOL.

The class spirit is strong~ Today is the most awesome day I've ever HAD in my whole entire life up till now, having such amazing PMs leading us in camps, cried as a class in the morning, landed with one unison 'bang' at hentak with the class. Went home and WATCHED JUNGYONGHWA i'm effing biased and ignored the rest c.n blue woops., SEXYEYES JUNSU BIRTHDAY, SHINee & 2PM's goodbye stages on MuBank, I'm totally drowned in all this!

WHOOSAY, baby!
I've recovered from the unhappiness.

thamyuni's adventure from hgmall to hgmall

2010-01-11T20:03:00.002+08:00

As requested. As rushed.

I was walking home from hougangmall yesterday, after collecting my cap, buying my mentos & 5 durian pancakes. YOU KNOW MY WAY HOME IS A VERY STRAIGHT-FORWARD ONE. Just follow the path and cross the cross-junction and I'll reach home. Yes, following the path will be walking the circumference of a circle. Its faster to walk the diameter RIGHT? Yes, so I thought the usual way was blocked by construction so I followed a person and take the HDBs road.

Ya, and I'm walking the behind path. Those you know above you got alot bamboo sticks with clothes hanging. Yea. Then wtf, there's someone who threw down an empty plastic cup and nearly hit me. Yea, so I walk and walk. Cross by the carparks and such. Then there's this family getting out of the car staring at me. Chh. I continue walking.

Then yes, I didn't see any familiar coffee shops. I'm suppose to see one if I'm taking the shortcut inside. Instead its all HDBs. Weird coffeeshops. Then I just continued walking. When I reach some kind of nursery of something, I think I'm lost. LOL. Then I just find the main road and walk out of the HDB flats.

When I reach the outside, yes. My first reaction is 'I see light'. LOL. Okay so I'm completely lost. But then, I DIDN'T FRANTIC A SINGLE BEAT! I don't know why. But, I just kept walking towards the left.. Yea and walked straight. All unfamiliar places.. I'm completely LOST. But I know I'm in Hougangave 3. But I don't know where the hell I am. Yes, wondering why don't I just take bus. I checked, there's no 147, 74, 165. Nothing. -_- I could only depend on my legs.

And yes, AFTER LIKE 20MINS OF WALK including the one inside HDBs. I saw hougangmall! Yay! In the totally opposite way from home. Yes, I walked the OPPOSITE diameter of circle instead. -_- Owned~

So I took 40 mins instead to reach home instead of 20 mins of walk. Ownage right?

So from this, you know that you can never depend on thamyuni for directions okay? 'Cause you'll get lost too. :D

The end!

the fear,

2010-01-01T18:20:00.002+08:00

I enjoyed my last 3 days in 2009. Totally enjoyed it! Awesome nights with Gayo Daejuns. :D SBS & MBC were the ones that rock much though. Because SEUNGGI'S MY EAR CANDY OWNS YOU. AND THE FREAKING AUDITION FOR IT IS JUST MAKING YOU LAUGH TILL YOU'RE ON THE FLOOR.

"HAPPY 2010!!! I SPENT MY FIRST SECOND OF 2010 WITH B.E.G SINGING ABRACADABRA ON MBC GAYO DAEJUN LIVE ON TVANTS THANKYOU!"
I'm very proud of that, very.

This year will be a terrifying year. Who am I going to mix with? I wonder really. No, I'm very afraid of this, really. In this new class, will I survive. Let's see.

sbs gayo! JJANG!

2009-12-30T01:16:00.002+08:00

You don't know how HIGH am I just now. GAYO ROCKS. GAYO ROCKS. SBS GAYO DAEJUN ROCKS! I just spammed vivien's conversation y'know. Ask her how scary my fan girl spamming was. And I hate vivienchew! She KEPT reminding me about SEUNGI!. Fuck! I find him okay mc-ing at strongheart. But when he sings! AHH! And his dance, dammit! I was so attracted! SO CUTE HAHA!

AND!
A 'ALWAYS KEEP THE FAITH' FANBOARD APPEARED!
This rocks your asses tons of shitload times.

I was too excited and forgotten to SS it and I can't find the video anywhere xO

Anyway the performance whereby f(x) and SNSD performed Sorry2, Amber was wearing this moustache-like bow tie right? I don't know why I thought its really on her upper lip. LOL. Which makes her wearing a fake moustache. And it's YOONA at the ending! Why Jessica isn't inside. Heesica played in the GEE right! Jessica should dance Sorry2!

CL rocked the stage with your hearts BREAKING! But can't they stop being cheapo and let her wear those swimsuits-like clothes. -_- Its abit, um. But in any case, she made fans scream upside down baby.

Ah, just move over to the boys group hot dance already. I was SO SO SO high when SuperSHINee danced GEE!
Gee Gee Gee Gee Gee!
Its so amazing, MINHO is dancing GEE! Can you believe it LOL. Heesica! He's a GIRL! LOL. Seriously I just screamed like hell from Gee to Bo Peep. Wooyoung tied two ponytails! @.@ And Muzik, damn hilarious. Key was dancing as Hyun ah. The part whereby they show off their boobs, KEY DID IT DAMN EXAGGERATED. I was laughing like shitzxs.

BROWN EYED GIRLS ROCKS. GaInXJokwon! HAH!

Going on with the You're Beautiful parody. You better watch the drama before watching this. Wooyoung & Junho kissed! Lip to lip! You didn't see that right? Go watch it yourself. You'll LAUGH your ass off. And I bet there's thousands of yaoi fanfic about 2PM coming up. LOL.

Lastly, I'm glad SNSD didn't really do a performance with Suju. HAHA.
Now you see how much I've hoped to live in Korea. I WANT TO TAKE PICTURE WITH SUJU TOO!

its the sixth, baby

2009-12-26T18:22:00.002+08:00

Kay, I phail. At least I'm almost done with the dongbang part. =X

Happy 6th Anniversary with TVXQ & Cassies!
Today is a very important day,
whereby this bond between the five awesome, talented, angels and their fellow fans started.
Loyalty, trust, believe, care, respect, whatever you could think of,
This is how we support them.
Even though its the tough period now,
It hurts to see their awkwardness on stage together,
All we hope is everything could go on smoothly without harming their relationship,
Not a single bit.
We hope to see the ♥ that they gave each other just like the past 6 years.

Believe, we all believe that this issue will rest.
There will be an 7th year for us and you guys together.

It've been 6 years.
Even though I've only start knowing you guys and the k-pop world since last November.
You guys are the one who brought me into this kpop world.
Let me realize there is such amazing vocals in this world.
Thank you so much to be here.

Its an memorable 6 years so far.
Miduhyo, AKTF, ♥ five lovely angels.
Happy 6th anniversary once again darlings.

Today is mum's birthday too. Went out with her and brought some polo tees and a pair of shoe :x Okay, at least I accompanied her out. Came home half dead, totally.

Thats all.
TIFFANY WENT INTO THE BOX WITH HYUNJOONG!!!! vivienchew gonna kill me for reminding her again :X

DAMMIT! My blogskin isn't dbsk. /rushesoff

sick of it, totally

2009-12-23T00:53:00.004+08:00

Always the same reasons. Overworked, resulting in insufficient rest. Slave contract of 13 years. Must sell over an amount of albums than can get % of profits. The heavy financial penalty of breaching the contract. How much further do you want to torture these artists that we care for and love, SME?

Even though Hankyung was never my favourite in Suju, its still freaking unfair towards him, I believe, to the rest of the members too. SME is too over, how many slave contracts did they signed with the artists actually? They should totally amend these slaves contracts before more applying for termination of contract which worries us about their future.

Everyone has to get 8 hours of sleep minimum to maintain a healthy lifestyle, I believe with their so-dammit-torturing-tight schedules they're sleeping way lesser than 8 hours. Look at me for example, just a day I'm having only 5 hours of sleep I'm having major headaches for the rest of the day already until I napped a little just now. What about them? Months, years, of insufficient rest. I really hope that I won't see that in the younger groups under SME, f(x) and SHINee especially.

This is getting so complicated already, let's just keep our fingers crossed and pray hard for them, supporting them forever.

In-som-nia!

2009-12-22T18:01:00.004+08:00

Having insomnia these days. Forced myself to sleep at 3am yesterday and woke up at 8AM! Dammit, the alarm didn't ring at 7.30am. @@ Rushed off to school like with a zombie feeling totally, head hurts like hell around 12pm. I am supposed to WAKE UP at 12pm if there isn't any band, urgh. Go do sai gang.. -.-

Anyway, just realized Henry's violin solo, a part was from Don't Don. Or was it? It sounds similar, seriously. :/ Hankyung terminating contract? Can't be bothered much now. It was jaesuchun, now hankyung? Next? SNSD? SHINee? Fuck it LSM. What's wrong with your slave contract. They're not your freaky slaves. 13 Years. That's more than a decade god dammit.

Today's insomnia is meant to rush finish the xmas icon batch @ lj. Thamyuni, you, must, finish, it.

Class outing is on Thursday! Looking forward to it. Rain rain go away!
YONGHWA IS MC FOR GAYO! paired up with shinhye. WOO ♥ Yonghwa jjang!

TEUK HAS ABS!

2009-12-17T21:12:00.004+08:00

This is an amazing discovery for myself today staring at MVs that I downloaded :X
My teukie have ABS! He has it! Mwuahaha. Abs ♥
Such a pervy fangirl. :S 6 pacs baby! :D
This is thamyunifangirl's awesome pervy discovery today! HAHA!

p/s : Gratz to the band for getting into finals! Grab the championship home~ :D
Was so fcking pissed when my mum just told me to go KL with the band YESTERDAY. Terrible, horrible. Why don't let me go in the first place? Wednesday&Thurs is a total disaster.

2009-12-16T19:46:00.005+08:00

DONGBANG IS THE MANIA & STAR OF ASIA!
YOUR ASSES BABY! ♥
Guess what? I'm so high right now AND I cried when they won this two big awards! ♥ I'm friggin' PROUD OF YOU GUYS DONGBANG♥ Though they didn't attend but THEY WON THE BIG AWARDS OKAY! I was stunned at first, 'cause its some of singers singing and I went photoshop, the moment I heard "DONG-" I rushed back to the streaming! Then it flashed "HERO!" I went crying like hell DAMMIT! The moment I saw STARS OF ASIA I went on crying like an idiot!

Okay. Limited time, thats all.

SNSD WON ARTIST & SONG? DAMMIT! WHY NOT SUJU! AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I had fun spamming w/ qiaohan anyway! :x Soshi will definitely chop us into thousands pieces and cook us rotten and throw into the deadsea if they ever saw our conversation. And my comp hates SNSD, boo. My livestream went all blank during the last two awards - Song & Artist. Both SNSD won it.. :S ~~Like computer like owner?~~

saranghae s, e, o, u, l!

2009-12-15T10:42:00.002+08:00

If there's such a cute policeman patrolling in Seoul everyday, a cute fishy guy helping me to pick up my shopping bags when I accidentally drop it, a pair of sweet couple taking photographs in Seoul frequently, such a handsome artist at the streets, and such, I will definitely regret I'm not in SEOUL NAO. But whatever, even without those, with my boys there I've regretted so much already. :x

And yea, photoshop is coming back to me. I'm gonna focus on my graphics journal over @ livejournal. Challenges, hosted site? Nah.. Too lazy for one. :3 Did my first batch of icons and posted up already. I'm having a insomnia yesterday night.. I forced myself to sleep at 3am. I could have stayed the whole night but, sis was asleep and I don't wanna torture her with the lights on, LOL.

Imma off to prepare christmas big batch. :x

It's a mystali mystali,

2009-12-14T21:01:00.002+08:00

This whole day is totally boring. What've I been doing. Yulganging in the morning with sister and went to help her make chocolate cornflakes. Afternoon, supposed to go to have mac with mummy, yet she fly me an aeroplane again along with my cousin. They've been saying they wanted to go eat mac like since the last few days, how many times have they put me on the aeroplane already. Of course was pissed, but whatever. -_- Mummy said tomorrow will go and have mac as lunch, well, can't be bothered anymore..

I've finished You're Beautiful a few days back, its amazingly nice. Its just like another version of BOF. Shinwoo's character is so similar to Jihoo. Instead of the male lead, I always love the supporting character better lol. Shinwoo/Yonghwa jjang! I've made him in my blogskin and as my desktop wallpaper too. You know watching this drama makes me wanna be the female lead so much. So much love and gentle caring from shinwoo ♥.

Anyway, my feelings for photoshop seems to came back. rofl. Thats why I've made my own blogskin like after so effing long. :x And look, you can stop the music on my blog once again. Vivienchew you don't have to rush to tag my blog anymore, lol.

Ohmyeffinggodi'msohappyandidunbotherspacingthesewordsandusingpunctuation!
Shinhye & Guensuk is gonna be the MC for melonawards *-* And SNSD+Suju gonna perform special stage together @ Gayo Daejun. Damn, I'm so excited nao. Super Generation~ I can't miss it. Melonawards is ownedzxs by SM artists. But urgh, our boys aren't attending either.

Its okay, its alright. Just hope this could be over soon, well. You know what's my wish for next year? I wanna see DBSK domination in Korea once again, and I want to buy the 5th DBSK Korea album. What that means? They'll solve this and come back together once again. Miduhyo. ♥

Winglin is pissing me off, loads effing slow. -_- I wanna read some yunjae & jaemin. Oh and please stop making jae sounds so effing weak and girl in your fics you writers! God, its giving me goosebumps. I rather read a normal fic.. Boo. :(

I exposed my fringe at fb when so many people are overseas. Hah. I'll never call it bangs.

♥

2009-12-07T00:00:00.001+08:00

I'm back to mention a few things :3

I know I'll be giving my dearest vivienchew a belated present but..
I aim to be the first posting on blog, wishing her happy bday.
I aim to be the first sms-ing her happy birthday
I aim to be the first posting on her fb wall happy birthday

All on 7 December 2009.

I shall not write down all my message to this person I've been missing for 8 days when she's gone in Taiwan. Privacy, you see. :3 Vivienchew, just wait for my belated present & belated card. :3

And last but not least.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEARESTVIVIENCHEW!
Don't cry anymore 'cause I did miss you during the 8 days.
See how bad my mood was, no one to talk to exactly. :3

really sick,

2009-11-25T14:47:00.000+08:00

That once-a-year-serious-sickness came. This year, it shall be a.. stomach infection. Its terrible, so terrible that I felt disgusted myself too. Monday, went to see the doctor. I was squatting down wherever we're pausing for something. Looking at my own feet, I can see the shape of my bone. That's how scary it is. I look so skeleton now, -_-

At least I'm much better than the first day I'm having this. The first day.. Horrible. Whatever goes in goes out from my mouth, which means, vomited all out. So starved for the whole day. The following two days, have no appetite at all. This sucks so much. You don't know how much I wanna go band instead to be staying at home energy-less. Even walking from room to the living room I'm having difficulties.

At the very least I'm much better now. I'm able to blog. Lol. Most probably going back to band tomorrow, but I'm not allowed to do physical activities for a week nao. Gonna feel useless once again. This is such a lousy feeling.

Best day of my life,

2009-11-21T21:24:00.003+08:00

"I would like to tell two people who might be watching this that I love them."

Today's MAMA is awesome. Its still showing now, watching live along with TXY. :D I hated myself for not being a Korean when DBSK trio spoke, but luckily was able to find the sub for it after a few minutes. Seeing the video, making myself cry over and over again.

"We will become a group who does not fall below your expectations."
Yoochun said.

And that touching line above? Yes, no one other than beloved Jae. He's looking sad, even though he did a little smirk when speaking, but its just too painful to watch with only three of them on stage. I just put the video on this post for myself to re-watch for the 20th time tomorrow. And MAMA, you phail. They use 纪 instead of 起 for DBSK. Lol but whatever, they've gotten Best Asia Star, and you suck SM for boycotting this event. LSM, open your fag eyes and look how much they treasure each other.

[TRANS] 091121 SM's attitude towards the 3 members of TVXQ at MAMA
SM “The three members does not have the rights to receive the award as representatives of TVXQ”

The award TVXQ 3 members received does not represent anything

Jaejoong cried backstage… Cassiopeia entered the resting room and kept on crying, Micky cried, Junsu was telling Micky not to cry…

When they left, their manager was not with them. There wasn’t any CODY. Nor bodyguards. Not even a proper transportation. They went off in a van. They could only go off after the fans cleared the way.

Source: MickyHome
Translation: nings @ OneTVXQ.com
Special Thanks:: sshutingg, linhkawaii, 'Lovedust @ OneTVXQ.com
Credits: OneTVXQ.com { One World. One Red Ocean. One TVXQ! }

Fag. SM just suck. They do not have the right to receive the award? Just shut the fuck up. They're part of DBSK. Its you guys' fault for boycotting this event. Its your loss. Its freaking hell sad to hear that they cried in the backstage. No wonder they left the stage in a hurry. Argh, I just hate SM. Though seeing the trio made me happy today, after reading this I just felt.. I don't know.

I just don't understand how fantards could fangirl over how awesome they look in these few tiring, saddening months. Yes, they're fantards after all.

Furthermore, I saw 棒棒糖 on MAMA, I was like whatthefook. I'm gonna get bashed by their fans anyway, they can't sing and they get some random award which I didn't notice. And c'mon, VS-ing 4 Minute? Even though 4 Minute wasn't one of my eye candy just by pure seeing kpop can pawn them easily. -_- An award wasted like that.

2PM gotten Artist Of The Year. Its so touching to see that, and they're sharing this honor with Leadja, obviously! Its a pity that Jaebum isn't there, and so far there's no news about him coming back to 2PM after the article whereby he's in Korea nao.

I'm addicted to parodies once again. Never failed to make me laugh.

P/S : If you're rushing to watch the full course of MAMA this year just after reading my post, means you phail as a fangirl, fantards.

replay, replay, replay,

2009-11-14T18:10:00.003+08:00

I replayed a lot.

Fan chants, that is. I know its dumb but I wanna make sure there's always Leadja's name in the fan chant too. There is. There really is. Hottest didn't left out ParkJaebum in their fan chant. Towards the end, the most important name before they chanted 2PM. "PARK JAEBUM, KIM JUNSU!" They chanted. Jaebum is never leaving 2PM. We all believe he'll be back. :) The boycott is not gonna go till where. I'm not supporting the boycott, somehow, I felt that at this time we should really give 1:59PM our support. When Jaebum is ready, he'll always be welcomed to be back at 2PM again, doing his role as a Leader.

Lol, and I tried to listen carefully the fan chants in the end, because its the easiest they're only chanting their names.

Park Jaebum, Kim Junsu!
Nickhun, Ok Taekyeon!
Jang Wooyoung, Lee Junho!
Hwang Chansung, 2PM!

Edits.
I'm happy. So happy till I can die. Leadja was saw coming out from Korean Airport. Wawee! Its a huge chance that he's back :3

on a rollercoaster,

2009-11-10T15:36:00.002+08:00

I don't know what to say, what to think about, whatever. Even though having things that meant to be happy happening today, its all down to the bin and that heartbreaking news came on top of them. Ignoring the title, the news is true. Complete mess, I will only believe the words that came out from their mouth. You guys promised you'll comeback, you will. We all believe. We're only trusting you guys. Please, stop these heartbreaking things already.

I'm completely sick of crying, I just went to read Koizora manga and watch the drama version. Koizora is Sky Of Love/恋空 for your information. Cried a lot at the scenes. Its just so tragic. Why am I reading tragic mangas these days. Argh, it just make people cry. -_-" Movie is the best though. :X Short and ~~sweet~~ saddening. The guy is more handsome too.

Okay, I've no mood to continue this.

2009-11-08T00:31:00.003+08:00

Makes me wanna cry. Today is such a heartbreaking day isn't it?! I just finish reading 2 tragic manga in a row. God damn it, Boku no Hatsukoi wo Kimi ni Sasagu has such a sad storyline okay. Die die die, whatever. -_- Make me freaking sad and teary.

And then, just watched the Heaven's Postman preview. Killed my heart again. I guess I will watch it when its out despite the fact that Jae kissed Hyo-Joo. Just seeing his cute face in the drama just make me wanna watch it. It've been a long time since we've see such a cute face of Jae isn't it. I couldn't bring myself to click replay again, I want to see Jae's face again, but I knew I'll see that kissing scene again. Thus, I just closed the window.. :/ Sorry for being such a emotional fangirl once again with a few months break.

Anyway, Yesung's husky voice rocks. LOL. Somehow it made Ring Ding Dong sounds very ballad kind of song. Bling had recovered already, so he'll be singing and dancing ~~and showering me with his love~~ once again tomorrow. But.. Onew got the swine flu~ ._. So it'll be teukie's turn to replace him for once! Leader replacing leader for a performance.. How ironic yea. BUT. I can't wait teukie dancing his way in Ring Ding Dong!

"The ones I give my love to, the ones I get their loves from, my families, my friends, and us seven members."Taecyeon's teaser, in it, he said that. Seven members. Is leadja coming back? Darn.. I shouldn't think about it. Makes my eye teary.

I should stop ranting and find something else to do. I lost interest in graphic designing.

not over with sm drama,

2009-11-02T18:14:00.004+08:00

Just when I'm still not over with the happiness that jaesuchun won the first stage.. Today is another attack of SM Dramas. It seems like everyone is against the trio and siding with SM now. I'm tired, tired of these. Having to wake up to accompany sis to polyclinic and stayed at home taking care of her. Just when I'm gonna take break and look over at allkpop. Tons of news on it. I'm tired, sick of it. What's totally happening.. I thought it's coming to an end. But, it seems like its gonna continue, longer, torturing us cassies longer.

Yunho and Changmin trusted SM will give them a good future, thus standing on their side once again. I don't know what to believe, who to believe already. I don't know am I suppose to be angry or whatever. Mind is completely blank, its like the day where Jaebum left, that particular day they released so much shocking news. Today is another day like that.

Edits.
Never ever trust allkpop for facts okay? Double check with other sites before believing.. I was too shocked and forgotten allkpop always exaggerate stuffs. Its just a rumor~!

on cloud nine,

2009-10-29T18:05:00.002+08:00

My feelings is unable to be described in words. I'm so happy, so happy. Just so happy.. Urgh, I'M HAPPY LAH.

End of October is a turning point, finally. After months of waiting.. They've won the first stage of the lawsuit. Thank you, thank you, thank you, THANK YOU! They're coming back as five now, all of them, c'mon let's parteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeh!

I'm just so happy now, I'll go do some stuffs :D

hiccup curses

2009-10-27T20:47:00.000+08:00

I got all happy after looking at tons of blingbling pictures. Got happy over positions of my results. But it came back.

THE FUCKING HICCUPS CAME BACK
I'm just so pissed. SO ANGRY. It've been 12 hours exactly since the last hic, now it came back.

Worsen, huh. A-L-O-T.

1:21pm
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Mum persuaded me to quit band once again, why can't she understand. I was pissed. But whatever, I won't agree in my mum's thinking in any case. I know its not band's fault. I knew it myself, it've always been my own determination's fault.. I know my mood isn't good but gooddyyyyyyyy my mood was back in seconds. :X

GUAAAA~ The final ruling is sorta out, just read it in forums and they used such big words nd I don't understand a single shit with my poor English, I only know its good news LOL. Okay but some just explained briefly, plus the casually translated news in my inbox let me understand better lol. I'm just happy, don't believe ask vivien guaaa. Ask her what she benefits from my ultra happy mood rofl.

I'm happy guaaa. Vivien is gonna call me a frog very soon because I just kept gua-ing today. >.>

oh love, love like this,

2009-10-24T23:28:00.004+08:00

Can you even believe it, I'm actually addicted to that 5 men who is in red today on MuCore singing Love like this. Maybe some people is gonna laugh their ass off, thamyuni listening to SS501? My ass.

Jungmin ownzxs all. ^o^

And I think one of the dancers look like hankyung. ROFL. And one more thing, I don't like the fact that the camera man is trying to focus on hyunjoong more than others even when he's not singing. Argh. Should focus on the one singing, right?!

Just went through all the perf on MuCore today, MBLAQ is not bad, I was like @@ when he lift up his shirt. :X SHINee, send me to heaven already. Onew made a mistake when dancing ringdingdong anw, expression priceless! Blur head!

so fantastic, elastic

2009-10-16T22:47:00.003+08:00

I suppose today and yesterday were the best days of this year in my entire life. Examinations ended yesterday and I felt as if I was let out from a underground jail for a decade. Today was SHINee's comeback stage for Ring Ding Dong and their MV IS OUT and its fucking awesome. Just listening to them singing the lyrics really makes me so in love with them. Aigooooo I love the lyrics. :D The last few seconds they grew wings and its freaking nice. Damn you Jonghyunnnnnn! Why must you be so charming, gahhhh.

I just can't keep myself focused on blogging. Guess I'll stop here. tata.

get serious,

2009-10-10T16:28:00.002+08:00

I bet you didn't know you're fucking annoying.

I didn't stay up yesterday night, because the English papers had already drained my energy. But today, no matter what I'm staying up. 7 hours meant a lot to me. Especially the midnight. There won't be any distractions at all. Just, me, alone. For now I'm doing my humanities notes. After that I'm rushing off to study Science. Midnight I'll do maths and home econ. Tomorrow I'll do a once through studying for humanities and will clear my doubts in maths and science.

I don't have much time to waste, no more, no more. Maybe when I'm taking break I'll post again.

time to get serious,

2009-10-09T16:19:00.003+08:00

Today is totally shit. English papers was extremely tough, I left my grammar and vocabulary at home I guess. I think my composition will barely get a B. Usual stuff, I'm already predicting my English to get a B4. Just hope that other subjects could pull my overall up, oh well. I'm going to burn midnight oil tonight and tomorrow night. Who cares about dark circles when you could get a chance to get better results by studying more?

Miduhyo, Chinese cassies rocks. Thankyou all.
Credits as tagged.
TVXQ is #1 on barks as best artist despite of the controversy, thank god. They should see they're so successful despite the fact they've lesser activities going on. I was disappointed that we won't see them at Dream Concert, it've been a long time since they appeared in Korea shows/concerts whatever. To speak truthfully, debuting for 5years 9months 13days and still able to top charts so easily, holding record of the largest fanbase in the world in Guinness. Its your own loss if you don't know how to appreciate them. They're fucking awesome human beings but being treated inhumanly. I don't know why must some guys be such a fool and say they're freaking gays, entertain each other. Jealousy, isn't it? They just have a strong bond together as a band, brothers, and freaking wonderful looks and body as well as vocals and also kept their words because they love cassies so cassies will wait for their return and they came back. Miduhyo, thats what we're now suppose to do and not to think weird outcomes of the court. No matter what happens, we believe they'll never break and stop freaking cursing them to disband.

Just read up the news at allkpop yesterday. Hottests are going to boycott 6-members-2PM by not going to the Dream Concert to support them. Like fuck. Hottests are meant to support 2PM, every single member in 2PM. What they are planning to do now seems like they're only concern and supporting Leadja and don't care about the other members at all? Yes, everyone wanted Jay to be back, but it've only been a month. I rather let him cool down more and think properly about it before coming back. Words do hurt, a lot. Put yourself in his shoes, would you recover so quickly, completely, in a month time, when someone just dug out your old comments when you're a kid, scolding ridiculous stuff, and got cyber-attacked by netizens mercilessly and even have petition on wanting you to die? Though knowing Hottests' support, negative impacts more than positive ones. Its the same logic whereby people always remember their mistakes more than the good things they've done.

Aish..

It wasn't the first time we're talking about this thing. I can't stand it... What's wrong man.

Miduhyo
I believe in you guys

Happy 14th Birthday Merrelynn

a time for a person to mature,

2009-10-08T18:22:00.005+08:00

I've spent time thinking, reflecting on our foolish doings, behaviour, and many, many other things. I woke up. I woke up from the i-don't-care-about-anything-there's-no-obstacles-in-front-i-don't-have-to-bother manner. And also learnt the new way of thinking, looking at problems, matters and stuff. I guess this is necessary for everyone in life to spent time reflecting on your life and troubles, and your obstacles ahead of you in future.

I started thinking about the complaints friends grumbled about to me in the past few years. Unfairness. Even though it was clear to me that everything isn't fair in this world, when friends complained, I just completely forgotten about it. Jealousy? Yes, we're young, we often compare with one another, especially when it comes to scores. "Wow, you've A1? But I'm still higher. :)" Although it might sound like a joke, the one with the lower marks will obviously feel uncomfortable in some way as someone just went on top of you, even boasting indirectly in front of you. Yes, you guys may not realize. That, is a form a boasting too. Just that it is in a kidding manner. Feeling being shot at after reading my post, huh? Means you're guilty. Stating the fact, I'm guilty either. That's why, I had been a mute for 4 and a half years before. Keeping your mouth shut is the best way, you won't even offend anyone.

I spent a few hours ~~slacking~~ studying and got a few ideas in my head already. All the best for tomorrow's English paper people.

"You'll never understand."
Because you caused it.

I'm freaking touched by this video. Shall not elaborate and study now.

2009-10-06T18:12:00.002+08:00

One down, Six more to go.Today? It was okay. Pretty confident for my composition, since I used back the same content again. Paper two... Disaster.

I.. should stop staring at jaemin and start studying.

interesting experience,

2009-09-30T22:08:00.001+08:00

Get to experience the earthquake from Sumatra today in the evening. Mum was panic, seriously panic and I was laughing my lungs out looking at her so panic for the first time of my life. I was watching changmin talking about his bladder when he's young (lol), I thought I was laughing and I shook my chair myself. But when my mum asked me was it earthquake, I stood up and its shaking. The whole flat was shaking. HAHAHAHAHA.

Anyway. I still can't get over the dream yesterday. Gahhh, must be because of my dreamless night yesterday. Nap dream is nice! I want some dreams too tonight. :3

Listening to SF talking about her dream right now. She said I still talk about DBSK in her dream when we're like 20+. God, I'm a loyal DBSK fangirl. -Jumps around in happiness-

I'll do something to my blogskin tomorrow or friday. Gotta rush my homework.

delighted,

2009-09-29T22:47:00.003+08:00

I'm in a good mood today after napping for 3hours or so, all because of one sole reason! I dreamt something good ^o^ Ah yes, Hottests' project for the skybanner was a success and its really sweet. I bet Jay must be touched. He have to! "J. What time is it now?" We all hoped that he'll return and reply us, 2pm. Anyway, my dream is related to Jaebum. I don't know why I dreamt of him and its really a, nice dream. Which is why I am still so happy now.

In any case, my love my changmin♥ increased. I blame myself ridiculously for numerous times today for watching changmin's cuteness instead of staring at my books and get more knowledge. Instead, I gained knowledge of changmin.

Jaemin rocks. I say again.

He hugged me and left the scene and I woke up the next moment, the dream was a wonderful one ^o^

"Again and again and again and again
너의 말에 또 속아 왜 그런지 몰라 왜 그런지 몰라"

missing,

2009-09-25T16:45:00.003+08:00

After hours of watching BFG, ASF, and even re-watched '08 MKMF (DBSK's performance only LOL). ASF, makes me happy because I finally saw SJ! :D I was slouching, or rather, lying back on my chair, watching the video comfortably, until I caught a glimpse of Yesung's chest, I immediately sit up straight and focus. I'm a pervy fangirl after all. But, not seeing them together for so long, I miss them okay! Kangin is missing from that performance anyway =( Kibum.. He's regular miss-er already.

Big Bang, dae is not there, at his solo is kind of weird as the middle spot, no one takes it, But! After so long, its I'm sorry but I love you da geojismar!

I'm just re-watching DBSK's videos now. Don't know what to do. I'm tired. Allkpop is practically scaring me and I'm going crazy.

Banjun Drama.. Okay I miss it a lot. I shall go and watch. ^o^

Anyway... I love Soul Fighter couple! One touch love ^o^

Anyway.. (again) Don't you think Changmin look alike to Sungmin/Ryeowook? More of Sungmin. xD

shelter,

2009-09-21T21:44:00.003+08:00

They look like kids playing masak masak, ^o^

Sorry, I've not been updating. Been busy playing game (yes again), and guess what. I've not studied yet. -_- I must and have to study tomorrow. That's it. I'll go full blast for my game on weekends. The rest? Just full blast study mode. Thats my plan already, because its totally impossible for me to study during weekends. There's way TOO MUCH distractions.

Yes, I'm going to save a ot of money from now onwards, because I'm not going to lunch outside, going home for lunch. My plan of not buying drinks contributes to my piggy bank as well.

Anyway, I'm getting impatient waiting for the results of the DBSK case. This month, this month, when the hell they're going to release the final statement. I'm believing them, keeping the faith that they won't separate. Believing that they're going to prove us, cassies, they're united, always, strong as one. Pui, I'm starting to talk rubbish again. Hai.

Anyway, I've memorized my lines for drama so I've no worries for it anymore. Just that I don't know how to make myself know my purpose of speaking on stage during drama. Aish. I really wanna improve and not pulling down the group's marks. =/

Had food poisoning last night, terrible stomach ache. Told mum today and she still dare to say she fried the fries yesterday and some dropped on the floor, then she was thinking our immune system won't be that bad, and just pick them up and continue frying. -_- That cause my sister and I having food poisoning. Was so awful till I can't continue to do my homework. -_-

But its still hurting now. My immune system is really bad.. -_- Pain like being chopped into 100 pieces.

oh oh oh oh my love,

2009-09-17T23:17:00.000+08:00

Study mode, on-ed. I'm starting my revisions, practices, TOMORROW! Because tomorrow is where band will stand down for EOY. Gonna work hard. Get back my position. I think I'm the only stupid one who will appeal to C2 if I get into C1. Argh, I'll definitely chiong for C1 if my CCA isn't band.. Well, work hard then say.

Eat grass, save more money! I've to learn to stop drinking cold drinks and stick with my plain water. Healthy and free. Yup yup. See me being a cheapo next week. Probably tomorrow onwards. Yes, the magazines making me bankrupt. -_-

Imma sleep.

Oh my super girl, you're my baby girl.

CRASHED,

2009-09-15T22:06:00.002+08:00

Finally getting the motivation to study hard for my EOY, she just crashed it within seconds. Just throwing me all the heartbreaking sentences and make me lose all my motivation. Whats for to work hard to get good results already. Wanted to, but she just crashed it. Just CRASHED IT SO EASILY. Just throw a simple sweeping statement at me without KNOWING whatever I've done at ALL. How am I going to survive my EOY now.

My motivation is all LOST.

life is crazy,

2009-09-08T19:53:00.000+08:00

This year is filled with crazy events. First is DBSK's contract case, which will come to an end soon, now, Jaebum is leaving 2PM. I mean, he left. Hell shocking news for me. Are they trying to make us can't stop worrying for them? These antis, what are they doing actually. Is this the result they wanted? Are they happy now? Past is past, why can't they let him off? I find it ridiculous why antis must exist on Earth in the first place.

Everything is too sudden, very sudden. Now the netizens are regretting, its so freaking LATE. I'm so freaking upset now. Jay left Korea before 5:30pm. Everything is in a mess.. Leaving the Hottests in chaos. What's wrong with this messed-up life! Why so many troubles is happening. Oh my..

This have to stop already,
I planned to talk tons of rubbish, but well..

I hope there's no more troubles in k-pop after these. Giving me a heavy headache.

Yay for my new blogskin and icons.

I'm suffering from butt-aches from yesterday's wushu. What the hell. Bones crack everywhere when doing the movements. My body is old, old.

I can't control my crazy mind from worrying and decided to blog more and crap more.
Leadja, Hottests miss you lots.. Left Korea even when there're tons of Hottests waiting at the airport, hoping that you won't go. But you just left, with that white buttoned shirt on you, leaving tons of fans crying like no tomorrow in the tears-filled airport. Many of us still holding onto one little hope, hoping that you'll come back to 2pm, go back to your members in 2pm, and perform on stage once again, making the hottest time of our day.

Di chet di, do` ngu anti-fans

Jaebum is one of the trending topics in twitter, this is practically insane already. =/

I need a break, everyone needs one.

hulk is a handsome guy,

2009-09-02T23:08:00.002+08:00

Today's vivo excursion wasn't disappointing, and I didn't sleep. In fact, I used up most of my energy concentrating on the movie. Its pretty good, didn't disappoint me much. Just so pissed with the ending and near-ending. Why the hell must the girlfriend go stop the hulk from tearing apart that stupid, yellowish brown, ugly, MONSTER?

Hulk is more handsome, let him be alive manzxs, kill that yellow ugly monster! I was telling lesbo throughout the whole movie that hulk is super handsome, more handsome than his normal human form. In fact, hulk is the most handsome one in the movie. =X

Ya, the sex scene. The class from fuchun was like so quiet and we 2E1 was like laughing like crazy. Then he stopped by saying, "I can't get too excited." DAMNED THATS SO FREAKING FUNNY. Although its kinda action-packed and not really my type of movie, I still find it interesting. Maybe this is the new kind of movie I'm liking. Hehe. I sarpork Hulk all the way 'cause he's the only handsome one in the movie. The scientist that cured Bruce is really a sicko okay, people becoming hulk he still don't want start the experiment and still wanna touch him. Whatthehell.

I still can't get over with G-D's solo debut stage. Its.. amazing.
11September2009, another day I'm going to be worried towards. TVXQ hwaiting!

Anyway, this thing on lesbo's blog seems interesting.

Dear Donghae, I talked to him in my dreams last night T.T
I don’t really know how to tell you this, our affair is over. ohmygoddd noo.. I think I realized it when I tripped on peanut butter outside of your office and I saw you sit on the elephant in the corner. never invite me sit on elephant also! I’m sure you’re crazy enough to understand that I’m allergic to your earlobes. I’m returning your your toe ring to you, but I’ll keep your credit cards as a memory. How smart am I? You should also know that I mocked you behind your back constantly and I’m off to lead a new life as a lemon.

Go milk a cow,
YuNi

This is my results, the ones in italic are just my personal fantasizing and fangirlling. The whole answer sheet is on lesbo's blog, I'm just too lazy and unwilling to copy the whole thing here, because I don't want my post to be so long with it. HAHA

respect,

2009-09-01T18:38:00.004+08:00

Privacy, do you know there's such thing called privacy? Today I got reminded of the pretty memorable incident that happened a few weeks ago. Found out that someone is a victim as well. I've poured all out to 2 persons. Thank you. I felt so much better. I don't know how to continue my life next year. Please don't act as one when you're not at all. As a kpop fan, you shouldn't be insulting other groups too over especially when the person you're talking to like that particular idol. Oh gosh.. Respect please, also respect people's rights please. ==

Oh yea, today went to get my hair trimmed. And my fringe snipped. == My fringe is like bangs now. How miserable. The moment that faggort snipped my fringe I was like @*#^@&#$^@ FAGGORT HOW DARE YOU SNIP MY FRINGE UNTIL SO SHORT! But well. == I'm still sad! My mum even said its nicer than before. Wth.

No pictures, but let you guys see my character after so long of gaming. 60 soon and will change look ^^ Right, back to game.

heartbreaker,

2009-08-30T17:57:00.002+08:00

Its awesome today. Inkigayo makes my day. G-D's performance rocks, he looks so happy on stage hehe. 2NE1's new remix rocks okay, so western manzxs. Live band behind somemore. This shall be a short post, I've to chiong game again. Midnight also need to chiong. Tmr I'll be most probably sleeping during concert. ==

Anyway, laugh your ass off with this video. Make you happy immediately.

The fanboy shouted so.. hardcore.

My healer is now level 56, gonna chiong 57 tonight. Midnight 58, hopefully. Tomorrow 59 and 60. Wish me luck~

Confidence..?

2009-08-26T22:12:00.002+08:00

Decide to take a break from the homework and blog now. Have been reflecting on myself these days, think a lot in fact. Spent time comforting SF also let me realize my wrongs. What have happen to me?

"Where has my confident goes to?"
"Where's my concentration?"
"Where's my standard marks?"
"Where's the past, me?"

In fact, my results dropped. All worsened. Actually I did not realize, do not bother to save my maths up to my past standards since the Sec 1 mid-years. My first 80s for mathematics. And from that onwards, I lowered my expectations for maths and never got above 90s again, like the past me. Its going from bad to worst. Where's your always 90 and above standard, thamyuni. You need to wake up from your dreams and start to mug all the way for EOY. C'mon, maths is always your ace in all other subjects. Get a grip and don't disappoint people who concerns anymore.

Chinese, a right-on-spot B3. What are you going to do with it huh, thamyuni. You've always gotten an A easily for chinese. What's happening to you, stop slacking off idiot.

Science, a right-on-spot A2. It've always been an A1, thamyuni. Why deproved? Wake up already..

Please pardon for my nonsensical scoldings on myself above.

Big disappointment for this 3 subjects.

unexpected,

2009-08-24T19:24:00.002+08:00

Oh please, its so unexpected. Whatever I'm worried for, its fine. And whatever I'm not worried for, its not good at all. A pass is not enough. Its never enough.. But.. Nothing could be done, yea? Tomorrow is my practical test for Home Ec, wish me luck and not poisoning my food. D:

Was moody for quite somewhile during Chinese and at home. But now, I'm alright. I love Jaemin. (: I watched videos of them and when they fight, its so hilarious and I can't stop laughing. Aish, such cuties.

Didn't get the time to code up Dreality's new layout again. Sigh, another day passed just like this. Shall take my own sweet time.. Too stress these days, seriously. I'm getting tired so soon.. Its a long day today.

hwating,

2009-08-20T16:14:00.006+08:00

"Furthermore, it is being speculated that the two members who did not partake in the appeal, Yunho and Changmin, will walk a separate path with three new members."
LeeSooMan, I totally hate you.

Haven't have the time to blog recently due to CA, but its over now.

I found the DBSK news on Wednesday night newspaper too, and its now on allkpop. Jaesuchun have to pay a total of 55million I don't know whether its for each, or together for the forfeit if they want their contracts cancelled. I'll side DBSK no matter what, please don't separate. The simplest idea will be leesooman amending their contract, but I don't understand why he refused too. Its. Seriously. Too. Much.

Now, he's totally forcing DBSK to nowhere, I mean jaesuchun. Applied the trademark for their group names, not allowing them to debut with another company using the same name. Why don't he try out himself? Having only a week off in a year and everyday sleeping less than 4 hours. Why don't he try it himself? Furthermore they're running from one end to another end of the Earth frequently, how tired was that? LeeSooMan~~-sshi~~, think, if you're them, aren't you tired out too? From young, we knew that humans need to sleep at least 8 hours to be more healthy.

If Jaesuchun leave DBSK, and they're putting in 3 new members to DBSK, I'll stop my fandom for DBSK, maybe watching back sometimes for changminnie. But, definitely, this will make thousands, millions, zillions of cassies cry.

And, I told myself this year I won't hate my Homec cher. But she forced me so.

I support the boycott of SM Ent. And I realized for weeks that their having serious eyebags which I didn't see before in the past. Oh no..
This post is continued at my friends-locked lj.

2009-08-18T21:54:00.002+08:00

Hyukkie & IU's voice are wonderful here, they sang/rap beautifully. :D Their voices matched well.. Felt troubled before, but after listening to their singing, I felt happy again. :)

FT Island have been catching my attention these days. Jonghun rocks with his guitar solo.. :) I can't catch up much with k-pop these days, exams bothering me. Just two more days. :) And I'll watch more on FTI.

Watching Suju's performance at the taiwan 金曲獎 makes me miss them lots. I want to watch them back at the music shows in Korea again. D: I miss dongbang too, i hope you guys' problems could be solved soon, cassies are always keeping the faith, as changmin told us so.

Titleless

2009-08-17T17:39:00.002+08:00

FUCK. I just realize August Teenage have DBSK content. Super Junior poster. SHINee content. FT Island too. I'm going to hunt them down.

Summer baby,

2009-08-11T14:02:00.002+08:00

Added blogsong, its Seaside by Suju, SHINee, beloved DBSK. Finally a collaboration between them three, for SMTOWN's album. Can you believe, the beginning of the song, This is SMTOWN from KO-RE-AAAA! is said by no other but CHANGMINNIE? Darn, his highpitchbabylike voice is making love him more ♥ Jae's voice is great nevertheless. Bling too (:

Jjong's singing in fan-meeting in Korea is awesome.

Pictures say a million words,

2009-08-10T23:29:00.003+08:00

I shall cut short and go to the pictures, elaborate tomorrow. Or never.
Warning : Big pictures ahead..

Nights people.

Updated with bigger images.

Stay as one,

2009-08-05T18:52:00.004+08:00

Its boring.. Anyway, found this edited Suju picture on the internet, which is similar to..

Kudos to the maker of the edited picture of SUJU!
SNSD's newest album! Cool, isn't it? I love the fact that my fishy is in the middle :D Bet that the maker is a fishy lover too XD Dang, its so cool alright. Although SNSD is the original, but I felt that SUJU fit in this too XD! SF is gonna kill me.

Another new discovery too! I went through tons of images just now to do my first icon batch on livejournal, and I found this..
Don't they look alike? Their beanie, that is. The same colour, just that Hongki put a skeleton on his. HAHA! I saw TOP's screencap first, and I immediately thought of HONGKI. Aish, they both are so cute. :D

Anyway, today's chinese newspaper is way better..
Its true for this article, as they did not mention about them going to terminate the contract like the fucking straits times. Thanks lots to vivienchew for cutting out for me, okay? Haha.

In the newspaper, they talked about JaeSuChun went to the lawyer film to talk about their unhappiness with the contract with SM Entertainment, and their schedules are very tight since 2004. They said the contract details stated they'll only have a week of break in a year, and the schedules are so crazy that our boys will only have 3-4 hours of sleep everyday. If their album sales is less than 500,000, they won't get any commision.

Although the contract was amended in February this year, each member only received 0.4% - 1% of the total album sales. TVXQ is not happy with SM Ent. using them as a tool to earn money, hoping that the court could let them be freed from the contract.

Seriously, please freaking stop making yourself as the victim LSM. After looking at the article on LSM emo-ing at a shop and it agitated me immediately. You're the victim? Think of who is suffering and attending those hectic schedules you've made for them.

Anyway.. SHINee is debuting in Japan soon. I'm kind of sad about it, because.. Sigh. Yes, starting off in another country is a good opportunity, but I hope they won't be walking the road their sunbaes got into. Hectic schedules.. Lack of sleep, etc. LSM, how clever are you. TVXQ can't stand you, and you're turning your target to our SHINee boys now? Which are more innocent and pure?

I'm having a weak heart now already. I better stop sitting in front of my computer now. Byebye.

P/S: And I think there's more and more people liking kpop. Cheering around! Jingjing like Jae too. :D Anyway, yesterday I saw a freaking picture spam of changmin and I'm totally afraid I might change my favourite in TVXQ. x_x Min-ah, why must you be such a DORK and so cute!

Lets continue. After resting awhile and mum let me continue for another hour. And I found another article on yesterday night newspaper, Wanbao.
Basically, they're stating what TVXQ expressed about the contract.. Allkpop have it here.
I'm now watching the news, seeing whether they'll report on TVXQ or not. Aish, they didn't..

And I wonder, is school also stressing us and going to be like TVXQ? We don't even deserve a break on celebration day..?

I think my heart is gonna can't take it. I need to rest. I'm having a weak heart nowadays. Wth. Ending with belovedjae.

Oppas, HWAITING! Jaejoong, hwaiting! Yunho, hwaiting! Junsu, hwaiting! Yoochun, hwaiting! Changmin, hwaiting! Cassiopeians, HWAITING! All fans, hwaiting! Aish, EVERYONE HWAITING OKAY?!

2009-08-04T22:47:00.001+08:00

Today, was just like any other school days. Made lormaikai during Homec, am now reheating it up to try it..

Gonna reheat it..

Reheating for 1minute!
My lormaikai's current state is too gross to be seen. All out of shape D: . Okay, reheating done. The chicken is freaking nice. DAMN IT. ITS NICE. Lormaikai is nice! First time I really like my homec results. Rofl.

Aish, I'm tired.
No, they're not splitting, get it?

Totally wrong,

2009-08-03T18:37:00.000+08:00

Fuck you, anyhow report
On allkpop, they've reported today that TVXQ had already stated their reasons wanting some amendments with their contract wanting some more freedom rather than having a tight schedules like now. They are not filing for a termination for their contracts, for goodness sake. Can't they get their sources RIGHT?!
Adding fuel to the flames of speculation, U Know and Max also announced solo acting jobs. stated from Straits Times.
What adding fuel to the flames? Having their solo acting jobs is absolutely fine, it shows that they're capable of not only singing, dancing, but also acting.
They wanted to be together, disbanding is a definitely no.

And through this, I found out which k-pop group I really love and won't abandon them no matter what. Though neglecting them when they're away or concerts, if anything happens to them, I'll only be crying for them. I doubt I'll for the other k-pop groups..
Thank you TVXQ, thank you for having a strong mind of not wanting to separate, wanting to be one together. Saranghae, Cassies will be your loyal ~~lovers~~ fangirls/boys.

Aish, my heart really peaced after reading the news at allkpop. I can't really get to sleep yesterday, partly because I've to rush finish my maths, but after that, I remembered I stay at my sleeping position for 30minutes at least before going into korea world.

Merrelynn said I was scary after seeing the newspaper article of TVXQ. She asked me a question and I gave a firm NO. Thats what I remembered. HAHA. My mood was pretty affected for the rest of the day, and of course, restless. Only have 6hours of sleep yesterday.. But compared to TVXQ, I'm still so much more luckier than them. SooMan-sshi, please let them rest more at least. Health comes first.

Actually, I felt better after talking to T.Xinyi. Because you know, talking to k-pop fans is better than expressing a bunch of angers on a innocent friend who have no large knowledge of k-pop. Like that friends will suffer in the sea of my bunch of nonsensical scoldings. Sorry so much to those I've put my angers on you.

Hwaiting TVXQ oppas!

Keep The Faith,

2009-08-02T16:02:00.000+08:00

Keep the faith, Changminnie said so.

Was watching Inkigayo, missed SHINee's performance because I get into the channel late. Sigh, but get to see 2NE1 performance anyway. Remix. This is the thing appearing nowadays. 2NE1 have their I don't care remixed today, sounds kind of disco-ish. It makes the song more lively nevertheless, but original is always the best, isn't it? :x

Was kind of pissed in Yulgang and decided to rest for dd. Time to take a break.. After finishing with Inkigayo I'll go find other stuffs to do other than sitting in front of my computer. Hahas. Perhaps I'll play the night dd instead, to get myself to level 44 at least.

Aish, reached level 44 already! I shall play till 6pm and take a break (= I'll be back with pictures in the night!

Edits.
Alright, trained till level45. Sorta lost interest already. Sigh.

Watching Star King right now, I guess that's the other variety show I'm going to follow.. But I'm pretty unhappy with some of their arrangements. :/ Suju is somehow the regular guest of StarKing, I'm just going to watch for their sake then. :x Can anyone give me a list of variety shows whereby LeeTeuk is the host? I'm having a hard time finding all.. - -

Games really makes you no life at all.. I'll go focus on healer later, its kind of ironic that how it attracts you and you're complaining about it. Sigh. I need to find a new game now. Or else I'll just stick with Yulgang for now.. Or maybe, no games at all.

So tired. Was gaming the whole day. See, my life became so lifeless.

All are rumors, let's put our hearts at ease now. Keep the faith,

Five is ONE,

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I don't want to see them splitting up,Rumors, official statements, have been going around for this week. On what? TVXQ's splitting up. Though not official, there's a LOT of rumors saying Yoochunnie, Joongie, Su, are going to sue SM Ent. for the 'slave' contract. I can see the salary they're getting from their album sales, etc, its really unfair to them. Having themselves all tired out from rehearsals and etc, putting in their best, give in their all, all their efforts, love, and you tell me they're getting only that less? Not being money-greedy, but I felt that its not justice for them people.

Of course, I, personally also wish that SM Ent. will not split TVXQ. Started off as an acappella quintet, till now, the asia idol group. They're so successful, and their fan base is always INCREASING everyday even though they've debuted for 5 years, 7 months and 7 days. They're the first idol group which I found, which REALLY can sing well and beautifully.

These are all rumors, there's only one official statement, whereby LeeSooMan will be heading back to Korea to settle this personally. I'll take back my words whereby I've said LeeSooMan really know what to do during the SHINee Inkigayo victory post on my previous blog killed by blogger. I really hope he could solve these and won't disappoint us. Disbanding TVXQ will lead to a lot of consequences you know. Cassies will be all around the world, fans nowadays, you won't know their power.

Breathes in. I shall stop blabbering about this. If not I'll get even more agitated and pissed.

Okay, why this new blog? My blog got killed by blogger just a short period of time ago. My blogger account was suspended for no reason, and furthermore I didn't even receive a single email from them, telling me that my blogger account was suspended, for what reason? - -

Darned, today is really an awful day. And yea, I just read the news on allkpop about the TVXQ news. Even the expert said that its hard for TVXQ to stay together. ~~Fuck you, expert~~ Please, let miracle happen and prove that bastard wrong.

Father SM, look over at the contract and just make some amendments which TVXQ will feel satisfied at least. Having lesser money going into your pocket is better than losing a talented group in the music industry.

Five is always one, four is not the same anymore. Neither do one, two, nor three.
Five minus one equals to zero.

Anyway, it've been awhile since I've check up on Suju. Yesunggie got his hair dyed back to black! Yes, no more dust on his hair. Though I've gotten used to his hair colour previously..

And thankyou, no more remix for Juliette. Original is way better -_- Anyway, I realised one thing which Jjong is so hilarious. Every performance without fail, he bounced when going to the bridge of the song. In this video, its at 0:25. He looks like he so excited that part. xD And finally, no more other names popping out at 2:24. Back to my SHINee world again! :D

Alright, got forced to go out for supper. End.